life is really depressing. every single day go through the same shit all over and over and over again. study eat slp study eat slp shit. there's no more meaning in life. everything is falling apart. i am seriously very tired. i spent my whole day in that blardie classroom mugging and mugging and mugging lyk a dog. mug until now sebeh depressed. i wish i can find some meaning in this life, but there's seriously none. it's pure fucking hopeless. and when depression sets in, u just feel lyk fucking it and just slp for the rest of your life.

and seriously dunno if i am ready for my o's. perhaps i lack of confidence, ultra paranoid.. or maybe i am just not prepared. mentally, i am not preapred for any shit. no not even for prelims a few weeks before. but my grades tell me i am ready, or somewhere near ready. i got 11 after moderation for my L1R5, o's would mean minus maybe 2 or 3 points, making it 8 or 9. yes my grades tell me i am ready, but i am just mentally not ready. i need to get back my confidence. my dying confidence. i seriously have no idea why i am not mentally prepared. i just freak out sometimes, and it's scary.. but the grades tell me i am somewhere near, though my mind tells me i am very far off. or maybe i am just tired, sick of this whole studying shit. everytime when i study till late in vs, it gets really depressing. from the 7th floor in the evening, it gets so gloomy, so sad, the sun sets, everything is tranquil, looking out to the horizon, the dark clouds sets in.. it's just gloomy, and it depresses ppl. den u stare down at the pond, and u realise, in less then a month, u will be leaving this sch, leaving everything. everything tat u have been through in your four years will just be gone. leaving your frens and teachers, leaving everything behind, and moving on with the new phrase of life. of cos we will still meet, but the feeling would be different, there would be no connection anymore, it's blank, and it's sad. just lyk my primary sch frens and teachers, we still meet up, but the closeness is gone, we no longer connect with each other, it's an empty feeling, lyk communicating with a stranger, and it's sad. everything u have worked for, will slowly fade away, just a little memory at the back of your head, and slowly, all will be lost. it's sad.

since yesterday onwards, i just felt tired. just sick of this whole shit that i am going through everyday. i can no longer lie to myself tat i like it, cos i really do not. it's not only studies, it's many many other things. the heart is very very heavy now. i feel lyk i can't be cheerful anymore. i am tired. seriously tired.

but of cos life goes on, we lament, and lament, but life goes on. the soul has been broken, but the body presses on...

shouted out at 8:38 AM

intense revision starts again today, after lyk how many days of break. i am starting to hate school. every policies made confuses ppl. first there was the save electricity campaign. go ard sticking yellow stickers "pls switch off the lights and fans after use" , den we walk pass the general office, and we see the air con in the p's rm at full blast, so cold uncle there's condesation on the outer side of the glass. den we walk pass the staff rm, the same thing, except the aircon and full blast lights goes on till 6 in the evening. den we start to question ourselves, air con and toliet lights which one use up more electricity.. but of course sch policy, have to follow, or later kana caught by mr chia, den he will give u some nice nice talk in his office about saving electricity. den u realise, his office oso air con super cold lights at full blast.

next we have the little yellow box at the canteen, to facilitate the buying of food. mr chia's idea. enforced by mr chia for a period of 3 days, where he would take some girl guide whistle and start whistling at anyone hu steps into the box. 3 days later, he doesn't even borther. no one borthers bout the box, cos it's useless. and den u realised, the paint on the tiles can't be removed, so the box stays on the canteen floor. i can't imagine wad other schs will say when they see tat box tt's too small to even fit iman inside. might as well draw a few yellow arrows to guide us ard, even MRT stations have phrased out tat idea. but of course sch policy, must follow, otherwise mr chia will catch u again.

den we have the "1 m away from the line" policy which is created by mr chia. early in the morning while we are enjoying the tranquil environment, mr chia will start screaming, "1m away from the line!!! 1m away from the line!!!" up till now, i have no idea why he does tat for, to make it look neater ah? for the helicopter on top to take nice nice picture of victoria ah. siao. but sch policy have to follow. do not question, us follow, for these policies have been carefully taught by the smartest most highly educated ppl in the sch admin.

aiya we have been living with such policies alredy la, so no harm.

countdown to o lvls begin. seriously, to me, life is fuck. at this period of time, life is seriously fucked up. prelims just over now got o's, and when o's over u will be out of this sch, starting fresh, it's sad, leaving all your frens and teachers, leaving everything. den prelim results another thing tat fucks ppl's life up. 11 can go where. hanging mid air. still very tulan for my emath, B4, dunno why oso become lyk tat. i wan ms monica chan to teach me. confrim get A1. a math F9. and the F9 is not borderline, is a nice 28. now i have in my L1R5 5 distinctions i B4. must w8 for report card to comne, den can really see black and white L1R5. i scared somewhere i count cock up, come back become 12, den i really cry.

tmr wake up again, a new day, a new beginning, go sch see mrs bok zoom pass in her BMW, see ms tham's honda fit with windows unwound again, see mrs raj who's always in her hyundai matrix drinking coffee and making long distance calls in the morning. take a walk around victoria sch, and u will see a very interesting scene. school politics go on every single day. mr maran buying coffee for mr ang and his guests. mr chia smiling and chatting happily with mr ang. sch politics. it happens all the time, of cos it happens, teachers need money oso, the more the better, it's their rice bowl, not a voluntary service. take a step back, and observe, victoria is really something more...

our final destination is near. press on people. the last hurricane has arrived.

shouted out at 7:01 AM

early in the morning go to sch. saw mr alvin you unwidning his window and shouting at some guy next to me while he zoomed pass in his toyota picnic. tink he was telling the guy to watch where he is going.. ironic. he looked ah beng, lyk some potential road rager, if there's such a thing. ms tham was parking her honda fit, windows unwind, up till now i still dunno why ppl have to save money on air con when they are in the car. lyk how much oil can u save, and if u really wan to save tat bit might as well dun drive. drive car oso unwind window, even sbs bus oso got air con now. the sights and sounds of in the morning of victoria sch's certainly interesting, as i strolled down the pathway with faris, hu was at tat time cursing at ms tham for 1.8 marks to make his english get a b4. he wont' be now, cos he has gotten his b4.

got called to the auditorium. apc started talking. nobody expected it, it was moderation time. english git 1 more mark. physics chem bio plus 5 marks each. combine humanities got 10 marks. apc is nuts, but we benifit from it, so gd lor. the rest where just 2 or 3 marks.

so in the end i got 11. from 14 drop to 11. my e math still B4. sebeh tulan. the rest of my subjects afetr moderation got distinctions.

EL - A1
Chi - A1
E Math - B4 (sebeh sebeh sebeh tulan)
Physics - A2
Lit - A2
Combine Humanities - A1

so total 11. i hate e math now. basket. moderate oso can't go up. now waiting for report card. i have to see the 11 before i accept it's 11. don't wan to calculate wrongly and make myself happy.

i realised my tag board is always down. basketball.

now the big qn is, go where with 11?

shouted out at 6:56 AM

wah seh today got back prelims results ah. hahahahaha. after all he slpness nights on bed thinking of the worst case L1R5 and all the consequences, finally had to face my fear today.. the results.

wah whole of yesterday can't do anything. kan chiong kan chiong. today morning oso nv eat breakfast, kan chiong until go cake sai.

on the way to sch, stupid bus insepctor woke me up again. whoa i hate bus inspectors. early in the morning 6 plus ppl having a nice slp in the bus listening to music den he has to start tapping me LIKE I SOME BALA NV PAY BUS FARE. den tap tap tap tap tap whoa tap until must wake u up or else he continue tap. KNNCCB. den i wake up tinking osmething big happen lyk the bus kana bomb or something den tat bus inspector would star and me and say "card please."whoa lau feel lyk punching his face. den take out wallet let him flash on tat stupid reader of his still not enuff "boy pls take out your card" for fuck. see my picture or wad fuck. cb la. ppl alredy half dead still must take out the fucking ezlink card from the wallet and show u. LYK I SOME BALA WILL NOT PAY BUS FARE. den take out card for fuck oso, see my picture ah? u tink i illegal immigrant ah. sbs must change must change.

went to sch first thing was e and a math paper. whoa heart attk early in the morning. a math came back first got 1 F9. F9 nvm la, expected. den e math come back B4. whoa tulan. den i look at pussidy beside me he get one A1 one A2. whoa i tulan lyk anything. die la how to face the rest of the day. sebeh tulan.

next physics. whoa lyk not demoralising. papers were gave out, one by one all came back, and i realised i passed my physics with flying colours ah. hahahhaa. i spent lyk 3 days during the weekend studying physics and still can pass until so colourful. before i even calculated, i shout "WHOA LANJIAO CHEEBYE I PASS PHYSICS AH" to pussidy, den ms seetho herad me. lol. kana sent to stand at the classrm door. ppl excited tehn shout this type of thing mah, u tink i suddenly go on the streets lan jiao chee bye meh. but physics i got B3. hahaha. can't belive it. it replaced chme immediately lor. whoa phyiscs got B3. whoa happy lyk anytyhing. of course cannot compare with ppl lyk pussidy and shaun"sneaky"chook, thos ppl siao one got A1. but still very happy la. no more tulan. math is history.

got back lit after physics. another sebeh kan chiong vital subject. still rmbred i neglected lit, only last day den start memorising lyk a dog. haha in the end got A2 ah. 70 on the dot seh. hahaha thanks ah ms koh. whoa still rmbred the day b4 lit exam study until sebeh tulan in sch, den somemore wasted 10 bucks take cab home to study somemore. nightmare sia tat experience. somemore next day come to sch early in the morning for lit exam firts thing afiq saw me was to tell me "the notes tat u made ms koh say wrong sia" whoa i tell u heart attk sia, but too late la just went inot the hall and whack. whack come out A2. hahahahahhaa. afiq got B4 if i am not wrong. muahhahaha. so i finally got 1 distinction. cannot compare to shaun"sneaky"chook and pussidy.

geog was after lit. got B3. 66. shld jump grade since got heavy moderation. i offered mdn kwok 1000k to push me up to A1. or $400 to get me to an A2. she was lyk give me the cold hard cash i will give u your grade. have to go bank get $400 worth of $10 notes out liao. i keep bugging mdn kwok sia, bug until she buay tahan oso... hahaha. i dun care i am gonna jump grade for geog after moderation.

chem was next. ms sim was back. whole class kept quiet. felt sympathatic for ms sim after the series of events she's been through, but she looked cheerful though. chem only got B4. another sebeh tulan. my mcq failed me terribly. 23/40 can go jump. if i get 30/40 which is comman, i would ahve gotten my A2. but haish. tt's life. give and take. no more pressure since i using physics as my L1R5. surprisingly. hahaha. but chem wasted. studied lyk a dog, still come out lyk tat. my written paper was one of the highest in class sia, but still my mcq failed me. felt tulan. but tat tulan is tat type tat doesn't come from the heart, not heart felt, lol, cos i noe i not counting chem, just tulan tat it's wasted. unliked e math tulan, tat one really tulan.

after chem history ppl got back there results. tt's when the nightmare started. all the super pro ones all kana whakced lyk siao for history. shaun"sneaky"chook was really very sad. i felt sad for him oso la, he worked so hard for below 10, but history had to burst it. becasue of history he got 14 for L1R5. not even his new Giorgio Armani bag tat he claimed was fake from thailand could cheer him up. shaun poor thing. cassidy oso, becasue of history become 14. but after moderation they will improve la.

english next. my time to shine. got 72.1. A1 ah. haha all the paranoid thingy over tat msg finally proven. yes i did WELL for english. hahaha. whoa my oral zai okie.. 36/40 ah. not even rtat shaun"sneaky"chook who got 79/100 for english and was lamenting why he couldn't hit 80/100 could beat my 36/40 oral score okie. hu say ppl hu mumble fail oral. muhahahahaha. den i rmrbed tat time during oral tat apar came out feeling super ocnfident cos the feedback he got was excellent. tat apar one kind one, tink he damn pro, twat tpy eocme out frm oral he was shaking his head lyk some.. lyk some dunno wad la, but he was sebeh confident. can't stand him. dunno how to be humble. den in the end come out results got 33/40 for oral. hahahaha i felt lyk going to him and start laughing at him, but of cos being me, a saint, i will never do such a thing. so aunties and uncles, dun see me here cheebye here cheebye there nabei here nabei there, my english get A1 DE LEH OKIE. A1 AH UNCLES AND AUNTIES. distinction ah. dun pray pray.

talk so mcuh nv even say L1R4. i got 14 la. 141414141414141414141414141414141414141414141414141414141414141414141414141414
i noe to ppl from 4D 4A tt's lyk lousy to the max, but i am just glad i got wad i deserved. have to thank Lord for guding me though this period of time and giving me the support and confidence. i am on par with shaun"sneaky"chook surprisningly, but of course he can beat me hands down if he dun count humanities. if no humanities he will get 9 instead of 14 (he got C5 for history), and i would get 11 instead of 14. so yea humanities screwed shaun up. it screwed a lot fo ppl up oso, waseem burst 20, somehting which was unexpected, i tink he's very sad now. waseem is another harsworking guy hu's zai in his studies. so seriously i shld thank Lord and my lucky stars.

whoa finally over. shoik ah. today can slp in peace. tmr start mugging again. now awaiting moderation results to come out, hopefully can get better, but lyk i always say, moderation is a bonus, not a must. hhahahaa. j-wei's theorem.

shouted out at 6:15 AM

it was just a joke.

whoa hazrin evil sia. switch wif ms tham for fun. let me kana depressed for over the weekend.

good good we have ms tham back. tt's the way things shld be. the battle has been withdrawn immediately. shuan"sneaky"chook will not be commander-in-chief- anymore

today for english go auditorium fo reviewing englsih paper 1. ms tham looked pale and weak. wahh den later found out she had cramps. lol wad cramps ah... hahahaha

den they were flashing some examples on those who did some stuff wrong in their essay. my one was the second example they flashed.

KNNCCB

"take for example, sixty yr old sam, he's has a multi billion entreprise and has all the riches in the wrold.."

KNNCCB

whoa liew. my essay let the whole world see. lcuky nv put name. and it's suppose to be a mistake. den dennis essay oso cannot as example. both of us sit down there sebeh kan chiong, doubting the credibility of ms tham's "u did well for english" msg...

but latr wehn msg her agian she say yar la we did well. dis type ard i stared at the msg for 15mins b4 deleting it. dun wan get paraniod for the rest of the day again.

whoa tmr getting back results. kan chiong kan chiong kan chiong.

shouted out at 7:25 AM

CME test tmr. civics and moral education. teach us must have morals. must be civic mided. must be good boy. at night before 12 must go back home and slp. cannot slp at girlfriend's house. cannot go geylang. when u see money on the floor must pick up and return police. 5 cents oso must. cost 5 cents oso money. cme teaches us to treasure every cent. cannot waste money. so when pick up money, have to give police, police will find the owner of the money, if not they will donate to NKF. we must love everybody ard us, we have to be Barney, go ard shaking hands wif ppl and singing "i love u, u love me, we're a happy family.." we have to love love love love love. we must not hate.

neh neh pok. if whole world go civic minded, we won't have police la. we won't have bala. wah can u imagine if no police how many ppl will be unemployed, den governement kana headache. so we have to have uncivic minded ppl so there will be police, but still have to teach cme in sch to turn us into civic minded ppl. wah chim sia. the balance of the society.

so cme test have to get A1. tt's 1 subject down liao. need to forcus on 5 more. see cme got use de. it's one of the few subjects u can get A1. cos we all got morals mah. we dun swear lyk some fuck. we very good boy one.

***

after much research, i have found out the best way to die is by carbon monoxide poisoning. tat's the most effective method. no pain no nothing. got a few methods of dying la. one is hang yourself. tat one cannot work, cos u dun wan to burden your parents. hang yourself in your rm at home, your parents how to sell away tat house in future? singaporeans so pantang, confirm dun wan tat house, den the price was hit rock bottom. so cannot burden your parents. even if wan hang oso do if at the void deck or something. better still la go next block and hang yourself. den the market value for tat block will drop and den your own block will rise so your parents still can make money in future when they sell the house away. wah killing two birds wif one stone.

the second way to die is by drowning. but quite painful la. maybe can go sentosa drown. recently got some guy drown there oso. at least drown there got ppl to company. drown at public swimming pool government still must waste ppl's taxes to get someone to scoop u up, den singaporeans will curse at u, die oso cannot die in peace.

third way is to stab yourself. tat one oso very painful. too much blood. blood stains the floor. den the poor town council auntie have to clean up your blood stains for you. must pity the town council auntie. so old alredi, dun make her work so hard.

another way is do drink acid. go sch chem lab kope concentrated sulphric acid and drink. but your stomach will be very pain before u die. so why put yourself through so much pain.

so the best way is through carbon monoxide poisioning. go your father's car, bring one rubber tubing, stuff one end to the exhuast pipe, the other to the car, den on aircon and listen radio. wah best way to die. seriously best way to die. clear up your body oso very easy. just throw away the whole car. cars are very cheap la, COE dropping lyk free, your father can easily afford a new one.

must start writing my will liao. tuesday is near...

shouted out at 7:10 AM

4 more days to getting back prelim results. very very scared.

i know my sciences confirm cock neh neh already, the others shld get a reasonable grade i deserve, or so i hope.

getting more and more paranoid as the days go by.

the day b4 ms koh appoarched me in the canteen. she said she wanted to talk to me. wah i tell u that phrase alone ah my heart stopped for a split second. den she started asking em bout how my other subjects were, den she started zooming in asking how was my other humanities subject. can die. can die. den i ask her if she makred my dying lit paper, she said haven't touch yet.

but still for the whole afternoon i couldnt' eat my lunch in peace couldn't tink in peace couldn't do homework in peace couldn't do wadever in peace la. super neh neh feeling. paraniod to the max. wah seh. so in the end buay tahan go sms her to see written black and white tat she haven't started marking the lit papers yet. yay! haha sry la ms koh ppl kan chiong mah, thanks for your concern ya :)

den today another one. up till now still feeling super neh neh. ms tham msged. ms tham MSGED LEH. MSGED ME LEH UNCLES AND AUNTIES. whoa. :) :) :) :)

Congrats Captain. You did well for english. Dennis too. Very happy for two of you.

i was on the stupid 55 1 hour bus ride, just woke up from 1 hour of slp when i read tat msg. my mind not being very clear of wad i was doing, i just deleted the msg instantly. a mistake i would regret till tuesday. now i ultra paraniod. was it a "did" or a "didn't" tat she wrote in tat msg. haven't got the chance to stare at the msg so tat it's imprited in my brain den i went to deleted the msg. super neh neh.

have been debating with myself since afternoon. if it's a "didn't", u sub it into the "did", it wouldn't make any sense since it would read "you didn't well for english". yar so it wouldn't make sense. so the probabilty of it is 0.01%. but still there's a probability.

or she might have been sarcastic. somehow the "didn't" was inserted, replcing the "did". but she's sarcastic, telling me congratts and being happy. which ever since the day i noe ms thma is very unlikely of her. consulted shaun chook oso u noe, the no one sneaky boi boi. hahaha. got shaun very paranoid in the process after he qned himself why ms tham nv msged him. came out wif a reasonable conclusion cos me and dennis screwed up our format so she just wanted to assure as that we were doing fine. but shaun got too paranoid went to msg her, and she told him "you did GREAT." whoa super neh neh now i even more paranoid.

why why why why why why why did i go deleted tat msg. i could have stared at it for hours and hours to confirm wad's in it lor, why i so neh neh go delete it the moment i finish reading the msg. whoa liao eh. now super neh neh feeling. peck check. why i go delete. basket ball lah.

the battle for ms tham to teach us continues... we must get her back. shaun will be made the commander in chief for this operation. hmm haven't name dis operation yet. ok la it shall be operation raine. quite cool rite. lol. sry la i really nothing better to do now. operation raine shall be carried out by shaun "sneaky" chook. the fate of our english teahcer lies on his shoulder. there shall only be one true english teacher to class 4f 2005, tat's ms lorraine tham. muahhahahaha.

my blog is on victoriana. whoa got heart attack when i saw it. dunno hu so idert go pautoh. blog oso cannot leave in peace meh. it's suppose to be for a small community of frends. lucky nv put url or anything, or else i die until very ugly. aiya but lyk hu read victoriana lyk tat. i know faris kope the half the our class victoriana to stuff it inbetween his stacks of newspapers to add weight to it to fetch a higher price when he sells them off the kanang guni. so hopefully no one sees it la. and shut up la faris it's not gay lor. your blog more gay. 3/4 of it got one huge apple logo tat does nothing. GO CHANGE LA. lol.

prelims ahve gotten me paramoid. and i am growing fatter and fatter. very soon becoming fat bastard. justin lookalike? lol.

shouted out at 8:31 AM

ms tham's gone.

not teaching us anymore.

harzin has taken over.

no.

life without ms tham would be lyk a table without a chair, a spoon without a fork, a tap without water, a bed without pillows, a house without furniture, a body without a soul.. it's inter connected, one cease to exist if the other stops too.

help. get ms tham back. wad's wrong with the sch admin. how can they anyhow switch teachers, esp at this very crucial time when students need the support from their teachers.. how can they switch some harzin to our class who has never even thought us b4. bonds can't be forged over night, it's impossible, totally impossible, how am i suppose to apporach a complete stranger when i am in need of help. what has the sch admin been thinking. dun they think of the consequences.. they always say wad we do is best for our students, pls justify tat claim in this situation.

no we have to get ms tham back. there's a war to fight. where got such thing u lyk to switch then u switch without consulting us. wad has victoria school become? some communist freak? wad do u take us for, your rag dolls huh, manipulate here and there, switching without even considering the student's feelings. this is unacceptable. we have to have ms tham back. no matter what. this war has to be won.

i have stepped down from my EL rep postition with effect from today. i would not wan to be a rep for a complete stranger who so bluntly came into our class and annouced he will be teaching us for the rest of the yr without giving any explaination what so ever. this is totally unacceptable. what has gone wrong. what is this.

no ms tham we have to get u back. shaun will see to tat. visibly shaken and depressed after the sudden twist in events, he remained silent for teh rest of the day. tink he's planning some battle plan, we can count on shaun to bring ms tham back.. the master of disguise has been awaken.

that aside, have to correct my previous post. zhao is not rich. zhao does not look lyk david gan. zhao does not own AX slippers nor a tommy hilfiger shirt. zhao is not rich. zhao is not rich.

my dvd has finally arrived. so happy. the postman ding dong and i jumped straight to the door to get my package. korean stuff are impressive. very very nice packaging. i think singapore is dying in her serivce sector. go upgrade changi airport first la. the floor tiles in changi airport at least 20 yrs nv change b4, even my house oso dun use tiles alredy. whoa must change must change.

the fatal blow... life without ms tham...

shouted out at 7:49 AM

last day of enjoyment b4 our 6 weeks timer starts again for o's.

went for a movie wif zhao and the rest. as usual zhao was asserting his financial status within the grp, wif shuan aka kk competing wif him. zhao came in tommy hilfiger shirt and AX slippers, wif some cap tat made him look lyk david gan. yeah zhao looked lyk david gan lor wif tat cap on to cover his hair, i thing david gan his distant relative la.. all rich ppl are connected.. it's lyk the royal bloodline. so far only the rich and mighty would afford to get AX slippers.. those at the night market would do fine for poor ppl lyk us at 3 for $10. but of cos the rich lyk zhao have to come in AX slippers. hahaha. zhao oso absent mindedly commented tat he hated his LV wallet at the cinema after being frustrated trying to stuff his cash in. too rich la. shaun oso another one. since kk owns timberland, shaun has a whole range of merch from timberland. didn't borther checking out wad shaun was wearing, he's just too rich. i tink when i am too poor, just go kidnapped these 2 ppl. each get 20 million, den fly off to some place adn start a new life as a farmer wif a whole bunch of farmer girls. 40 million ransom money shld be enuff to last me till i die. i have my cattle for meat and milk.. yeah i shld do fine wif 40million being a farmer. subsistence farming if i am not wrong, crap lost touch wif geog only after lyk 1 week after the geog prelim. zhao and shaun trying to follow their father's footsteps ah.. wearing men's products when they are still teenagers. now shld be rip curl billabong la.. not tommy hilfiger or timeberland.. but nvm mah, they rich, not their fault, cannot blame them. lol.

movie was ok. jack neo's once more chance. more lyk a support the yellow ribbon project film. i dun tink it shld be in the cinemas, it shld be those tat they give out free together wif the yellow ribbons. the last scene was the most ridiculous, everybody started taking out a yellow ribbon and waved it ard. buaytahan. mark lee's acting was commentable, the movie was ok overall.

after the movie went to play pool. sneaky shaun went to jam so he couldn't join us. shaun's always sneaky. the boy on the move. the sneaky one full of tricks. secrecy runs in his blood. whoooo the sneaky shaun chook. lol relax la shaun.. jk jk only.

pool was fun though i idn't noe how to play. zhao oso sneaky. hidden pro. when we first started, zhao claimed tat he nv play pool b4.. den he purposely whakc some lousy shot for his opening. but upon seeing ronghua being so firece, he revealed his proness. told u all of them are sneaky. the rich are always sneaky mah. lol. den zhao still kept denying he's a seasonal player when he's so pro. hidden pool pro. at the end of the gamr zhao wanted to treat us.. haha once again trying to assert his financial status.. lol thanks ya zhao.. but of cos cannot let him pay att $8.80, so me and ronghua gave him 2 each.. not nice to take advantage of a fren's kindness even though he's rich. so yeah thanks zhao u sneaky one. from dis i can conclude all rich ppl are sneaky ppl. all the brain can tink very fast, twist and turn.. tt's why den can become so rich mah. the high fliers of the society.. unlike commoners lyk us hu prefer to walk rather den fly. haha

sch's in for all of us hu have taken a long break. quite guilty for doing little work. only managed to complete paper 1 for both e and a math 2001 o's paper.. plus 2 topics of physics mcq. i am scared. yes really scared fater wad prelims turned out to be.

shouted out at 7:25 AM

ikea rawks.

the food there is great. fried chicken wings, meatballs, salmon. wah shoik. eat and eat and eat and eat.. eat until wan to vomit, but still must eat cos just too shoik.

ate 7 chicken wings in a record breaking time of 15 mins. by the time i began my 7th wing, felt a little dizzy cos of the repeitative action of ripping the wing into 3 parts and start biting of the flesh. but still i continued, cos it was just too shoik.

meatballs oso very shoik. salmon oso very shoik. haha everything there is shoik la. i tink if i ever run away frm home i would camp at ikea. it's a furniture shop wif a restuarant in it. whoa. lyk not shoik. there got bed go chair got table got everything sia. and the place is so big, just need to hide in one corner when they closing then the place is all mine. i can even have free food once i learn to operate the eqiupment in their kitchen. how wonderful. ikea ikea ikea ikea ikea.

haven't been slping well for the pass few days. prelims fault. keep thinking bout my results. basket.

finally installed warcraft 3 to play dota. whoa the feeling lyk not shoik. for the pass few miserable days of my life i have been playing neopets. can u believe it neopets leh. i can earn lyk 10k a day in my bro's acct cos i play 6 hours of neopets. bored ppl can do extreme things. i tink u guys shld try it out oso.. www.neopets.com it's fun seriously, the games are very simple, not lyk dota so complicated tat i dun even noe all the stuff in it up till now, neopets is all bout simplicity.. so nice so fun.

i tink i shall go on a spa retreat. maybe 5 days la. monday to friday. sentosa shld be fine, den i shall come back feeling more relax. yes yes i shall have a spa retreat. anyone sponsor me?

feel crippled without my camera. so many things i can take picture wif.. so much time to explore wif the cam but yet NO CAMERA MY DAD LENT IT TO MY AUNTIE... wahhhh.

to 6000 hits and beyond!

shouted out at 7:19 PM

lantern festival..

instead of carrying lanterns, we ended up starting a mini camp fire. went to the jogging track next to some river, more lyk longkang to me la. the place was very very dark and eerie at night, but we continued on..

lighted some lanterns.. lol tt's for my 7 yr old bro, i started collecting dried leaves. den took 1 pack of candles and lit it up all over the floor, place the candle paper box in the middle.. it started to burn of course, and i added dried leaves in. in no time the fire was started, not the docile candles on the floor.. but a raging fire...

assisted by my auntie, we continued our search for fuel. at first it was dried leaves, then it bacame twigs, then branches. in no time a mini campfire was started. haha super funny suppose to carrying lantern ended up starting fire. our fire was considerably big to attract any NParks officer walking about.. and oso because our fire was sustianable since it's fuel was branches and twigs, and not temporary fuel lyk dried leaves tat give u a big fire but will die out after a short while. so yeah it was fire. as in real fire. quite happy, first time coming into close contact wif such stuff after a long long absence from scouts.

in the end those spoiled lanterns went into the fire oso.. plus the paper boxes of the sparklers. we started throwing sparklers into the river oso.. effect was super cool, the whole background was dark, then the sparkler just flew into the river, lyk some shooting star.. lol NParks would not be happy about this.

wanted to cycle too, but some idert stole my bicycle seat. lyk wtf. the whole bunch of bicycle were parked in the underground carpark at my auntie's condo, and still got ppl want to steal. and of all bikes have to steal my. just because my seat got quick release. whoa sebeh suay. park in condo carpark oso can kana stolen. and i took a lot of measures to ensure tat my bike would not get stolen. since my front whell oso quick release, i locked both the front and the back wheel, but hu will go lock the seat sia, and in the first palce the seat cannot be locked. whoa sebeh suay. then cannot ride, ended up using my mum's bicycle which was those tat u go market use de. whoa sebeh suay.

den while trying to find twigs for the fire oso so touch dog shit. whoa suay lyk anything. i tot it was some branch, den started digging it, and realised i was digging into dog shit. wah warm one someone, can die. had to wash my hands thrice b4 i could get rid of the shit smell on my fingers.

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another blooger kana sued for racist remarks. s'pore ah really must change. wasting manpower on the wrong places. i mean it's kinda obvious tat such stuff are meant to be just for fun only rite. wan to promote social cohesion oso dun do it in such a manner. wad will another countries think bout us. alredy s'pore reputation not tat good liao, still wan to make things worse. s'pore getting more and more cock up.. migrate la migrate la. go aussie become farmer wif a bucnh of farmer girls. whooooo

lilin on this month's fhm. faris help me go airport buy again. muhahahaha

shouted out at 9:23 AM

it's over.

prelims.

time really flies. start of the yr i was still tinking got a lot of time to prelims. mid yr i was thinking still got quite a lot of time. and now it's over.

over.

prelims are over.

not a nice feeling. no feeling of relief. no feeling of triumph. no feeling of joy. i left my prelims with a heavy heart, a full load more of worries, misery, pain. no matter no hard i try, it would always be the same, the paper would always be harder, always be more sfrewed up then we thought, always full of surprises. vunerable.

if the sch wanted to wake us up, i think they have done a wonderful job. but they could have chosen our mid yrs. oh well, tat's just how they function.

the way the sch admin plan exams are wonderful too. they have 2 weeks. instead of breaking the subjects out evenly, they chose to do 3 in the first week and 5 in the second week. and the second week subjects are heavy. heard of brain drain? i dun think they have. i haven't been getting enough slp, i think i drank 3 bottles of brands essence of chicken this whole week to keep me going, or my brain would be half dead. our mind has a maxinium studying cap of 4 hrs, i have been pushing it to the limit. poor brain. the sch admin just can't learn to space things out evenly..actually i am just glad mr ang hasn't given us his little speech on "electicity is expensive pls pay $2 for the aircon tat we provide u with for your examination", nobody would pay in the first place, cos the reason is just plain ridiculous. if u have no money to pay the electricity bills, dun build an aircon to burden yourself.

growing fatter too. eat sit study slp. no become lyk taxi driver. all got pot bellies. nv exercise. no actually since when did i ever exercise.. lol.. tried running on friday. yes ppl i actually tried to have an evening jog. but i realised 4 rounds ard this pathedic small little track in some small park, i totally burned out.. my stomach was steaming.. ate too much chilli at yoshinoya a few hours ago b4 my lunch.. wah i am super weak sia. but at least i tried rite. lol

chook has been caught establishing contact with ms tham again. i have informants all over the sch. they are my eyes. lol. chook i am watching you. just becasue your k.k father drive silver merc SL500 ah... aiya but nobody can beat tat ben chee bye number 1 ms tham stalker. still ms tham wished me luck just before my lit exam, felt enlightened... haha

after exam went to play lan. dota. lol. i noob la, but still i feel of playing dota again is really satisfying. wasted 8.20 on lan though. costly. very costly.. esp when i could have played at home for free, but i uninstalled the whole thing in my com at home.. so i wasted 8.20 on lan..and now i dun have money for my weekly mocha ice blended regular.

for idiots like faris.. the english is quite screwed though, the chinese version is fine..:



TAKE DOWN ALREDY LAH. singapore why so anal.

hey my dream is to become a racial harmony day ambassador okie..

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muahhahahahahahaa... my dvd finally coming, it's about time. let's hope the post man dun anyhow handle it and ship it to the correct address.

deleted my previous post. hahaha. no racist la. just for fun. faris not angry can liao. dun let handam see, or he will kill me. took me very very long to get the photos up big enuff for the tower to be seen sia.. wahh now delete it wasted la.. hahaha

shouted out at 4:05 AM

geog and ss over liao. wah another subject down. social studies was okie la. geog was okie oso. just hope mdn kwok close one eye, give higher, den plus some moderation, hopefully can get distinction. hopefully.

history ppl even easier, mr thiru leak out the whole history paper to the whole lvl, where got not easy. just study 1 out of the 10 chapters very well and go in there and whack la.

geog different. nobody leak out. so study lyk mad dog. but the stuff i studied came out, so yeah.

physics on monday. have to try my best even though it's hopeless.

life really hopeless. everyday come back study, den next day go sch exam, den come back sad sad cos screw up, den u start asking yourself study for fuck. but u still have to study, and den go back to sch and take the exam and screw up again. so dis cycle repeats itself, called the self-depression examination cycle. we are all stuck in this cycle.

changed the song again. too much local music will kill. now it's gwen stefani - cool. something mroe melancholic oso. hahahaha. lyrics next time i fidn den i post la hor :)

the mina at starbucks airport. wahhh. i wan to go back there to buy coffee from her. maybe i first 3 months go work there, den can get to noe her. she super exotic sia, plus under the romantic yellow starbucks lighting, whoa sebeh exotic. den she wear this silver colour necklace with the chinese character "ai", or love in english... den the necklace sparkle under the yellow starbucks light..plus her dyed hair is tastefully done, wahh for once minas are not bad.

shouted out at 12:15 AM

e math paper. paper 1 was okay, as in yeah seriously i tot it was okie. tot it was esay to the rest at first since a lot of ppl finished before the 2 hour timing , i was quite surprised that i completed paper 1 with half an hour to spare. many were going toliet, and richard phua looked quite insulted standing in the middle of the stage, lyk his paper was too easy for all of us.

but of course all of us complained it was difficult. maybe it was just "us", those within our little community. paper 2 was a real killer, just tried my best and completed the whole thing. completing is one thing, getting it right is another..already spotted some very very careless mistakes, costly.

that reminds me of english, fuck la why of all times i write the format worngly for my prelim paper. that's stupid to the max. shit la. no point crying over split milk though, i think my first 3 months below 11 is kinda impossible now, looking at the standard of the papers and those to come.

e math wadever la, i practised lyk siao, still do do stun stun.. at least i have tried my best, the rest is up to Lord.

went to change my oakleys wif dennis after the paper.. oakley just lyk apple, produce low cost products selling at sky high prices but their products are meant to be exchanged as many times as u wan. rightful warrenty exploitation. my specs had been loose every since the time it got bend, the shape has gone out slightly, and there are a few scratches on the logo, which i kindly scape of more to show that the frame was worth it's warrenty exchange. of course i got the exchange la, me and dennis, both, werid rite, 2 ppl going into your shop having the same type of prblem wif their frames and asking for a one on one exchange.. it's called rightful warrenty exploitation. the frame had no stock though, so wrote down our add and all tat and there will contact us when new stock arrives, wasted 1 trip to tat shenton way shop. but still got my warrenty. this my second time exchanging a frame that cost 200 plus but looks lyk it's only worth 20 bucks.

lunch at Carl's Jr. tat paris hilton's advertisment... hahaha.. i am suppose to be a puritan. the burgers were solid, something lyk whooper but a much thicker serving, and they serve it to u together with the tray which is actually WARM. dennis say they stuff the whole thing into the mircowave, wow. and the coke was FREEFLOW. first time sia. can considering studying in carl's jr. coke there is freeflow, so dun have to worry bout drinks. since it was shenton way, we started looking at all the office girls tat walked pass during lunch hour, got some exotic one tat came into the restuarant, but still nto as exotic as the mina at starbucks aiport, whoa tat one really exotic.

updated the song. too much melancholic stuff will kill. support local bands. Parking Lot Pimp - A Letter from Dreamland. yeah maybe i shld listen to ronin.

wednesday social studies. mugging lyk a dog. chewed up the whole ss textbook. i can recite to you the content. tmr have to start practising qn, ss is another subject i have to score. dun screw up again. god bless.

amen.

shouted out at 8:56 AM

to all the bastards hu were enjoying themselves at evening of music and drama tonite while i was mugging social studies lyk a mad dog, screw u all.

realistic targets. set realistic targets ppl.

the self-deluded victorians shall fall.

the self-deluded sch administration shall fall.

the principal's hyundai got scratched i see...

lucky the engine is still intact. awww didn't know victorians actualy do such a thing to the principal's car.. awwwww... lyk i care.

i heard from others bio practical was harder than the 2 chme and physics prac. once again vs has kindly demostrated their high hopes they have in us.

realistic targets ppl. self-deluded teachers.

the mina at starbucks coffee changi airport very exotic, pls go take a look when u are free. exotic. sebeh exotic. and i reliased after tasting various coffee from all over aiport, coffee bean and tea leaf's ice blended mocha the best of the best. bittersweet taste. whoa shiok ah. 6 bucks. expensive.

fall/winter has finally arrived. time flies.

shouted out at 9:10 AM

time flies

the last week

prelims...

teacher's day celebrations was screwed up. as predicted, the stupid song dedication shit was a waste of time. wastin 2 hours of time in the morning, lyk hu was listening to those gay songs played over the pa system. we blasted it wif our punk rock courtesy of najid the poser drummer. shuan chook was at his high. of cos mah, when it came to giving ms tham the present. heard he sneaked into the staff rm to find ms tham. den according to zhao yao, he jumped all ard ms tham and lead the way to our class wif his entourage consisting of dennis and a few others. i didn't go la, not tat despo, was watching 4E trying to barbecue some stuff by inverting a table on top of another in a alumminum foil. there was real fire ad charcoal. i tink they are siao.

so back to ms tham and shuan. shaun was enegetic throughout the whole process. i sat back and shut my mouth. it wasn't fun anymore, it was actually quite disgusting. to look at ms tham who alredi knew tat we bought her the bikini trying to act as if she doesn't. just disgusting. all my fault la, hu tell me itchy hand go write it here, sry dennis sry dennis... yar so while shaun and the rest were jumping ard her trying to spot her reaction and take picture of her, i just couldn't bring myself to act as if nothin has happened. well ms tham acted lyk she didn't noe, she's pro, from drama mah, english and lit teacher, all acting super pro. but was glad it's finally over. the whole stupid incident, frm the start to the end wasn't a nice feeling.

but of course shaun's werid jumping bout being entu was closly watched by zhao yao, haha and now we all noe bout his sneaky sneaky... lol shaun relax la we understand we understand.

the stupid concert was stupid. all crazy ppl trying to sing but cannot make it. they airconed the hall for the concert. the sch admin really has no brains. we sweating lyk shit, they go aircon it. of course inside will smell lyk shit rite. i pity the teacehrs sometimes. the sch admin really cannot make it.

studied in airport today wif faris and farrell. got some little secret tat happened in the airport and we are not suppose to tell otherwise farrell will come and kill us for real. tried studying in polar but got 2 very irritating ppl who i am not suppose to say or farrell will kill me, so i ended up walking ard airport lyk some idert while memorising the social studies stuff. things got btter when 1 of the 2 irrittating ppl left. it always takes 2 hands to clap, when one is gone, the toehr will stfu. but of course i am not suppose to mention anything. it's suppose to be "nothing has happened" kinda situation, so j wei shall shut up to prevent anythign frm happning lyk the bikini incident. j wei shall not be itchy handed again.

attended wil beng's mother's funeral after tat. the place was quite sad, but the fried chicken wings were gd. ate lyk some dog since i haven't had dinner. everybody's syaing i have grown fat. shit la. today i had an upsized whopper meal and an ice blended mocha for lunch cum tea break..fattening... condolences to wil beng.. cheer up :)

so after the funeral suppose to spend these 2 ten cent joins for good luck or something lyk tat, some chinese tradition thing, so dropped buy 7 11 to spend it. since it was late, lyk 11, i scanned the whole magazine rack for my lin chiling maxim issue. i think today's the longest time i stood there staring at all the men's magazines. but i can't find tat issue sia. it's lyk suddenly tat issue dissapeared in all the magazine racks. spotted lime mag however, and this super cool looking army file that came along wif it as a free gift. tot it would be nice if i could use this file for my geog file, but realised the lime mag had defects, fergie had double image, which meant the printing wasn't done properly, so decided not to watse my 2 bucks. couldn't find it, so i went to the counter, there was this newspaper rack, at the bottom of the rack, those same army files stuff out, which tempted my to see if they had a non defected lime issue. trying to pull one out, but my hand felt somehting plastic on top of the stack of files, so i pulled tat out halfway instead, and his familiar devil ballon wif the words maxim written on it, and i realiased tat was the lin chiling tat i wanted, wtf sia why so secretive keep down there, there must have aty least been 5 of the same issue all hidden down there. i tink the indian cashier trying to hide so tat no one will buy and in can sell on ebay. so anyway pulled it out, stodd down there lyk an idert, and i realised that i have to SPEND the 2 ten cent coins, trying to get 4.80 out of my wallet so that the 2 ten cents can be used for the maxim which costed 5 bucks was kinda impossible since there was a lot of ppl ard at tat time. dunno why late night a lot of ppl in 7 11, i tink it's becasue of 7 month la. so in the end had to abandon my maxim and go for a 90cent mentos sweet. but i will be back for my lin chiling. muahahhaha. hey i am 16 okie. morally right to read such stuff liao. haha.

my post pretty long hor..

shouted out at 8:45 AM