within 2 weeks studying in temasek polytechnic we have:

1. made frens with the Operations Manager there, and he's the complete opposite of chia. he allowed us to eat lunch under the no eating sign in the class room, no la actually we ate finish alredi he came in the smelt the super nice corona lemon chicken rice and farrell's black pepper pork chop. den he asked us "u guys ate here ah." lol. of cos we admited la the whole room felt of food. "u guys wan eat here i don't mind, but auto la when drop food pick up, dun let rats and roches come" den he gave the thumbs up the left the room. lol we stunned sia. so we made a new fren - the OM of Temasek Polytechic

2. made frens with some teacher from tp. haha tat guy got stunned when he walked pass us and i shouted HELLO! lol farrell kana stunned oso. den he asked us "how's the study environment here." lol den we started chatting. wah tp teachers so frenly, unlike tat om chia, walk pass him he stare at u from head to toe lyk u some criminal. buay tahan.

3. figured out how the motion sensors in tp worked. yes yes we finally firgured it out, the toliet lights motion sensor. it's quite cool actually. but up til now i am still in doubt how the thing would work if some guy is in the cubicle doing his stuff. it any guy comes in and go out, won't the sensor be deactivated and the lights go off? haha tt would be scary la.

4. got some weird tp souvenir from the canteen. farrell found it lying on the table. it's just super weird, looks lyk some ufo thingy. told u tp ppl were werid.



5. got to know the basic infrasturture of tp. it's messy. it's weird. the endless corridors, the countless doors. lyk wad they always say, tt's tp4U.

6. i finally have a virtual map of the super messy tampines bus interchange area. they have no signs guiding u to the mrt station, so end up walking one big round. but upon having a bird's eye view of the whole area from the mrt station, i now have a little virtual map of tat complicated area inside my head.

tp is actaully kinda wonderful. cheap food. frenly teachers. understanding OMs. the admin is a complete opposite of victoria.

tat aside, this week alone i had to close encounters with death. one was outisde vs. i was standing in the middle of the road divider, when out of no where this ferrari zoomed pass me at 120km/h lyk his grandfater owned the road. i could feel the gust of wind, and my heart skipped a beat. if any strap from my bag got hooked on to tat bastard's ferrari, i would have gone flying. and the best thing is he made a u turn and came again at 120km/ from the other side of the road, just when i was about to run across to catch the 55. i wild gladly scratch tat bastard's car if i ever see it again anywhere.

the second encouter was outside my house. got some ppl carrying coffin ands walk on the road, den they play those buddist chantings and all tat, yar u shld know la confirm got see before. so they took up one lane of the road, and i was on the other side preapring to cross. quite engrossed in the whole scene taking place beore me, i did't look if there were any cars present b4 crossing, and befpore i knew it there was a motorbike 5m away from me. lucky, very very very lucky, he was oso looking tat the funeral, and he slowed down, in time for me to realise wad i was doing and run for my life.

went to sch today to see ms koh for lit. ms koh and aaron was great company, had a fun afternoon, dunno if anything went in, but i hvae the notes liao so just have to start reviewing them when i am free. haha thanks ya ms koh, lov ya. it's quite sad, thinking tat all these wld be ending very very soon and we wld all have to move on. but tt's wad life's all about - moving on. and for the first time in my entire life, ms koh commended tat my scout t shirt was nice. i tink dis is my greatest achivement in my scouting life, someone telling me tat some which had the word "scout" on it looked nice. we all have to admit tat the scout u looks horrible, and all the other scout shirts tat we made looked old and tattered, so it came as a big surprise. wil beng shld be over the moon, the scout t shirt design and material looked professional for the first time. made more polo shirts of tat material. seriously looks more presentable haha.

had a little tour of the staff rm and ms koh's table, looks quite cosy with all the cute cute stuff ard haha. maybe the best part of teaching is having a super cosy cubicle for u to display all your cute cute stuff, but tat only adds 1 pro for teaching, against all the 101

one last thing before i end off, my edusave ran out of money so i had to pay 35 bucks in cash for some lit senimar tat i attended durin the june hols. wad's with free education. my father pay so much taxes and i dun even get enuff edusave. where's free education. nothing is free. they lie. they lie all the time.

as u can see, i have finally gotten my camera back. finally. finally. finally.


close up of erm.. aiya u can see for yourself la. haha thanks ms koh


he lights up...

shouted out at 9:05 AM

things to take note when studyin in temasek polytechnic:

1. only eat the corona chicken rice in the canteen. the other stalls cannot make it.
2. the guard comes to lock the study room at 8pm, even though the notice says study hours till 10pm.
3. the toliets at night are invested with roaches of all shapes and sizes.
4. the toliets use sensor to turn on the lights, so in an event of a faulty sensor, prepare to shit in the dark.
5. the toliet uses a refreshener tat smells lyk Baygon.
6. the aircon in the study rooms get super cold.
7. OHP projectors in the study rooms are meant to be abused.
8. the ice cream vending machine is super cool state of the art piece of electronic device. must buy ice cream from it to see how it works. the instant noodle vending machine beside it is also super cool, though not recommended to buy from since corona chicken rice is 100 times better.
9. there are 2 weirdos who would play warcraft 3 standard game (not dota) at night using their laptop without sound. think they can't afford electricity have to come to tp for electricity.
10. never study with leon. he always ask ppl to go tampines with him.
11. bus 8 takes forever to come.
12. farrell loves to steal ppl's handfones and prank call.
13. faris discovered the place, but never comes, we have since given up on asking him to come.

btw, the infrastructure of tampines area seriously cannot make it. i can get lost within the maze of the bus interchange, mrt station, century sq, tampines mall, and some building tat has challenger in it. i tink they shld seriously put up sign board to guide ppl. no perhaps they shld come to bishan to see hwo user frenly it is.

chem prac tmr. dun panic j-wei. sundar's always beside you, he's the smartest guy in 4F, shall not say anymore since ppl are getting sued for being a racist. and pray hard i do not sit right in front of the teacher, cos it automatically eliminates any chances of copying.. hmm no teachers are far sighted creatures.

god bless.

shouted out at 7:41 AM

whooo today go temasek poly study for 5.5hours study until so shoik. reached there at 5pm with farrell and we started studying non stop till 10.30pm. we got ourselves such a cosy and nice classroom to study in, plus no other influences, dun have ppl lyk leon who was go "eh go play lan" after studying for 2 hours. so today is study study study, which is why it's so shoik!!! whooooo can u imagine sitting down on a chair for 5.5hours non stop doing chemistry until u go crazy... whooo i have done it again. see i keep doing wonderful things tat i have never dreamt of in my entire life becos of EDUCATION. wow EDUCATION is such a wonderful thing, it pushes ppl to thier limits. whooo i love EDUCATION. let's study study study study study study!!!!! study get good results den sch get credit, say teachers have been doing hard hard hard hard hard hard hard hard hard work therefore the students come out so smart. DO A POLL LA. POLL THE ENTIRE SEC 4 POPULATION LA. we are the ones going though your little "intensive" program okie, so please POLL us before starting to yapping about how wonderful and dedicated the teachers are... i mean yar la if u say ms LORRAINE tham or ms koh or ms sim den maybe they a bit a bit but i STRESSS HOR IS A BIT BIT BIT BIT hardworking la, but other then those few ah... lyk dun have any liao leh.

before i forget, here are the list of achievements tat ms tham did during her short stay in dis skool:

syf gold for drama. and i have heard tat apc was so mean to her dun let her use aircon in the auditorium plus the low budget tat he gave her. but inspite of all tat she won a gold for syf, AND THE SCH NEVER ANNOUNCE TAT IT WAS HER HARD WORK TAT WON IT. all the sch did, no wrong actaully it was apc standing on the stage said vs is proud to win syf gold. NOT EVEN A SINGLE MENTION OF ms tham u noe, wad is wrong with the sch admin. dun give credit when it's due. and they treat her so mean, dun let her use aircon somemore, we call for a omplete change in the sch administration. too bad sch admin no election.. yar maybe i shld suggest tat to the guvmen, election for sch admin, students get to choose the ppl who will head them, since their parents pay taxes which is used to pay the sch admin, so why not man LET THE STUDENTS CHOOSE THE SCH ADMIN. MS THAM FOR PRINCIPAL!!!! whooooooo!!!! sry la i am writing dis at 1.30am in the morning after 5.5hours of non stop studying.

ok we have to continue on her achivements... within a short yr teaching 4F, she motivated the class to get second in level for english results for prelim okie. with 6 A1s 14 A2s and 100%passes with no Cs. isn't tat wonderful? she's such a wonderful english teacher. whooooooooo!!!!!

no good nv see her for 1 week 2 days 6 hours 48mins 32secs liao. i shall go back to sch and get english compre answers from her again. ahhhhahahahahahahahha

i just realised tat i can't take vj science becos i failed my a math. WLM WLM WLM WLM WLM WLM WLM WLM WLM WLM WLM WLM WLM!!! why wlm teach me until both my mth so jia lat wan, e math got B4, den a math F9. whoa liew. so now i can only go vj arts for first 3 months. cock la. wad kinda stupid moe system is this. cannot more versitile meh, i genius u noe, within one month i can jump from F9 to A1 la, SO LET ME TAKE SCIENCE STREAM FOR FIRST 3 MONTHS CAN A NOT. whoa liew wad kinda system is dis i must must must must must feedback to moe. tharman shamugaratnum. got spell correctly a not? now election coming they shld give us some incentives so tat we can vote for them mah. so they shld change the system now la. eh wait wait, students can't vote. oh no. tt means education side they won't change anything. wah liew.... now i noe why they dun let ppl below 18 vote, cos if they allow those from 12 to 18 to vote, they have to change the education policies to suit us better once every 4 years, den tink of some way to revert it back to the original.. wahhh not bad they quite smart, dun let students vote in election.

so i can't take science stream for first 3 months in vj. sad sad sad sad sad.

one more thing, i have proved to ms koh in my past 5 posts tat i DO NOT SWEAR AT ALLL. WHOOOOO ISN'T IT WONDERFUL!!!!! THIS BLOG ISN'T VULAR OKIE NOT AT ALL VULGAR NO NO NO NO NO NO NO. only swear when pissed. ahhhhh so u see my blog not vulgar ah. j-wei is a well mannered boy who does not swear at all, or even if he does is only unless abosulely necessary. lol

WHOOOOOOO I HAVE TO WAKE UP TMR AT 9AM TO CONTINUE MUGGING BUT YET I AM STILL NOT SLEEPING AT 1.45AM (it was 1.30am just now when i typed "i am writing dis at 1.30am" see time flies) J-WEI IS SUPER MAN!!!! WHOOOOO SUPER MAN SUPER MAN SUPER MAN. eh dun wan super man. i wan be batman. batman got katie holmes as girlfren. haha i bought the batman begins vcd for my dad hu nv watch the last and most exciting part of badman in the cinema cos my bro was afriad and wanted to leave the cinema, so my dad accompanied him. yup yup i bought (say no to piracy la. download from bit torrent oso need electricity) batman begins vcd, and katie holmes looked SO WONDERFUL. KATIE KATIE KATIE KATIE KATIE KATIE KATIE. so i wan be batman not super man. did anybody see the last scene of batman.. katie was in a silk blouse and she didn't wear any bra. no i am not sick to spot such details, is just tat IT'S TOO OBVIOUS. dun believe me go watch la. batman got such a super hot girlfren.

J-WEI IS BATMAN BATMAN BATMAN BATMAN BATMAN BATMAN BATMAN BATMAN BATMAN. plus he's super rich cos he own wanye enterprise. hmm no no no shld be PAO ENTERPRISE. yes yes i finally have a goal in life, to be the founder of the multi billion PAO ENTERPRISE. i shall sell everything from rubber duckie to offering services lyk night escorts. whoa den become lyk ntuc, everything oso wan a share.

it's now 1.50am. GOOD MORNING PPL. and j-wei is batman. :)

shouted out at 10:08 AM

took a break from the temasek poly study room today. went to sch with aaron to discuss lit with ms koh.

did something fantastic something which i tot i would never would do on bus 55 today. i completed a mind map on Olivia, one of the twelve night character, all on the bus, while it's moving and rocking. still quite amazed how i did it, plus my handwriting still kept with the super neat standard. putting my bag on my lap, den a file on the bag, den balancing the paper on top of it, i tink i can go to the circus to take up balancing after this. also learned tat complete stillness in the bus is almost impossible, merely lasting only 1.5 seconds, when the bus shifts gear. if i am lucky i will get 1 min when the bus stops at the red light, other then tat it's trying to anticipate when the bus will jerk again. whoooo i am king i did it. i have been doing very incredible things becos of lit for the pass few days, lyk reading twelve night on the bus and on the mrt, avoiding all the stares tat i get, ppl must be thinking this retarded nerd got nothing better to do with his life in the mrt oso my take out some super striking yellow colour book filled with all the colourful colourful tabs and start reading lyk his father own the whole mrt. still i did it in the face of diversity, and i have since become a autistic child living in a world of his own. see la dis is wad lit do to ppl. dun take lit. it ruins your whole subject combination and u will find tat u have no where to go. but still lit has been an eye opener, but of cos my future comes first. so i am in deep shit now. yes ms koh u have terribly ruined my life.. nvm after o's when i choose subject combi den i come and settle. hahahaa

went to sch in black boardshorts. muhahahaha. den i heard from aaron, chia nothing better to do wan to chase those not properly attired out of sch. sch admin really nothing better to do la. graduated already dun come and distrub us la. everything wan security, lyk there's any to begin with, the sch has hostel, anybody can walk about la, and not lyk the sch got anything valuable, unless u consider those stupid smartboards which cost a few k and no one uses.

true enuff, the sch admin actaully alreted teachers to catch those who are not properly attired. U THINK EVERYBODY SO JUSTICE LYK THE "you know who who pautoh ppl take lift" AH? WAKE UP LA. if the whole world so justice, den this world might as well go die. fel yeo saw me and tell me "u better leave soon ah" den i giv her the "huh" look, den she pointed to chia's office, "u not scared he come out catch u ah", hahaha.

spent the whole afternoon with ms koh and aaron. didn't know it could take so long. yay my Olivia template tat was put to good use. in the end ms koh took home everything to go add on more stuff... muhahahaa and i am still waiting for the twelve night template which was due since prelim.. some ppl quite lazy ah. okok shld not say so much somebody's performance bonus is at risk. lol ms koh is a wonderful teacher la, just tat she occasionally takes 2 weeks to mark your essay but ask u to hand it up within 1 day, den somethimes her timing can go very off key, say give her 5 min end up 30 min. haha shall stop here. thanks ya mdm. lov ya.

i just realised it's 2 mroe weeks to o's.

shit. i have to be even mroe intensive. all the way whack from now. no time to waste.

shouted out at 8:02 AM

hectic studying life has restarted again. on a strict 9am to 10pm study period. lol actually not really la inbetween got eat play com 1 hour and slp a bit.

faris got some condusive study room open for public at temasek poly, tat guy always first to know such nonsense places. so we decided to try there, since changi airport everytime kana chase here chase there, go staff canteen study oso can kana chase out by the auntie, den go mac the bloody television so noisy. mac repeats the stupid stuff they show on their tele, and it's every 5 min repeat one time. u sit there study for 1 whole day can die. lyk tat time during national day they were playing some ndp 2005 theme song, play until i can recite it, and i now have a photograhic memory of rui en in all her different poses in tat ndp music video. so changi airport is bascially a super cock up place, dunno how the others can study there. no la actually those who go there and study claim to go there and study but actaully go there play and slp. plus changi aiport sometimes will meet some PANGseh ppl, den some ppl will start to despo here despo there.. ahh tat's the past, got 10 for prelims anyway, so maybe changi airport got some help la.

so to temasek poly we headed. got some study room which was actaully a leture room, super small, super cold, super good for making out. plus it's at the end of the super long corridor tat stretches the whole length of tampines ave 1. so ideal for make out. too bad all boys la, screw backside not fun. the study room super fun to study, very condusive oso. since it's a small room to ourselves, plus aircon and everything. but i realised tat those rms only good for practising papers, if wan to do hardcore super need to concentrate and absorb subjects, must go down to the second lvl where there are seats to study. subjects like lit la, super take up a lot a lot a lot of brain power. today do lit for 3 hours solid down there can absorb but den afterwards whole brain completely zap out. lit is some super demanding subject, if i do lit for one particular day i can't do anything else, whereas if i dun do lit i can do lyk 2 chem papers in 1 day. but i quite happy with myself cos i actually read the whole twelve night text one whole time without skipping a line. whooooo after all the long and frustrating hours of trying to firgure out wad tat stupid shakespeare tryin to say, i finally read the whole text though. ms koh will be proud of me hahahaaha...

yesterday night the study room next to ours got these few girls singing lyk they own the whole lvl to themeselves. whoa sebeh irritating, plus they sing not nice, listen to them can die. as u know those study rooms are very very quiet, and we are only divided by dis thin thin partition (moe everytime wan save money can't even build schs with better sound insulation, den all the money go spend on teachers' day dinner at some hotel.. see la those teachers get paid so mcuh plus all their bonus and everything then moe still must pour money for them go makan during teachers day. HELLO hor moe is funded by government which is funded by US, dun run the sch lyk u running some multi national corporation, happy happy go spend money on teachers day dinner, den happy happy go spend money on some stupid smartboard tat no one uses, den happy happy go spend money to paint some stupid double yellow line in our canteen. wan dinner can la, go kopitam la, food there good and cheap, dun need some buffet at some hotel. whoa teaching is the best career ever, u get to slack when u teach, den the student have to work lyk a dog to get the good results, den when they get good results u take the credit and get super fat bonus. whoa which career in singapore so shoik one, plus teachers day u will get whole lot of junk from your students which u can recycle for christmas present, den still got free dinner at some hotel. plus sch holiday u oso get to rest, go sch work a bit den enjoy aircon in staffroom, not forgetting the sch blasts the staffroom aircon to the coldest u can ever get, and ask the poor students who use fans to SAVE ELCTRICITY. who don't wan to be teacher? SARS period moe under pressure den declare extended sch holiday teachers oso get more holiday, whoa the best civil servant job u can ever get man. plus sch provide marker refil, red pens and even a fully functional state of the art desktop which u can go online on msn for 24 hours and free internet connection. i grow up wan to be teacher liao. only setback cannot drive bmw to sch, eh wait, mrs bok does, hahahahaa, no offence lah)

okok back to those girls making a hell lot of noise. so they were singing lyk thier father own the place, sing until all of us buay tahan. i walked over to the partition and whacked it. lol instant slience leh. for 2 seconds la, den they starting laughing and banged the partiion oso. AND THEY CONTINUED SINGING. wah lau. den i shouted HELLO. haha dis time they never even shut up for 2 seconds, immediately shouted HELLO back and started laughing. DEN THEY STARTED SINGING AGAIN. buay tahan. lucky they left shortly after.

me and farrell when around the place at night treating it lyk our own sch at night. farrell go kope the NO ENTRY TO STUDENTS sign out side the staff room and stuck it at one of the study room's door, den the girl came out and got a shock, haha end the end she opened the door wide wide don't dare to close the door. lol. den i knocked on another study room's door and went to hide. lol the girl inside came out and walked ard to check for anybody leh. hahaaha. i tink she oso kana shocked. so late at night still got ppl knock on the door. temasek poly is real fun, tat's after u study for the whole afternoon and wan to unwind lah.

plus i am slowly getting myself familiarised with a strange place known as tampines... ooooo at least i know bus service 8 and 23 existed in tampines area.. hahahaha

shouted out at 8:48 AM

i shld blog while i am feeling cheerful. last feel post all so depressing de, was writing when i was very very very depressed. feeling much better after sorting myself up, and coming to terms with reality. Lord helped me though, he always does, the one and only. haha religious freak again. but really la, one needs some spritual guidence in his or her life. a life without God isn't complete. haha there i go again.

finally got back my report card. i got 10 for my L1R5. as predicted. haha tat fabian didn't lie, u really can dun count e math and replace it with a science. whooo alvin lim rocks. so yes yes l1r5 for prelim is 10. 1010101010101010. if u see my previous post, getting 10 would mean i am 0.4 marks away from 9 points. cos my chme got 68.7, just need 0.4 to make it 69.1, which den round up to 70. but den tat wouldn't be my true score, so i shall stick with 10. have to thank god for my prelim results. my hard work has paid off i guess. strangely, the 2 subjects i worked very hard for, e math and chem, i did very badly, but somehow i did very well for a subject i didn't study at all, physics. haha i guess Lord is alway fair, he took e math and chem away but gave me physics. so yeah it all evens out. thank god. haha religious freak again.

shall aim for vjc. hopefully i will be able to get in. anyway first 3 months no serious work. my ultimate goal for o's is vjc. i wan to study somewhere close to vs, still can't bear to leave the sch. not many from 4F wil be going vjc for the first 3 months i guess, looking at the class results. we all have to move on, find new frens, new groups, and just move on, it's just sad, but tt's just life.

graduation day was really fun. brought back all the past feelings and emotions. those time when we were small and at the bottom of everything, in terms of both standard and cca. den we slowly climbed and slog our guts out, and achieved what we are today. a wonderful process, though painful and unbearable at the start, it's just part of life i guess.

got some meritorious service award for scouts. the name so chim until i dun even noe how to pronouce. the english pro shuan"sneaky"chook kindly taught me to. dunno why i am the only guy who got it, it's some uncomfortable feeling. but turt and the rest will be getting their some award during next yr's speech day i guess, so it all evens out.

the presentation at grad day still clear in my mind, it hard to forget certainly, 4 years of being a victorian, 4 wonderful years and fun and laughther. i wouldn't find going 4 years back in time and starting all over the again. the faces in victoria are all of familiar now, the rituals and everything, so wonderfully magical.

everything tat has a beginning has an end. our end is near. cherish the very last bit.



yes i keoped this from shaun. with his permission. this is just too wonderful. nil sine labore.

shouted out at 8:31 AM

the emotional collercoaster ride.

it has finally happened.

graduation day 2005.

seriously i didn't tink it would have come and passed so fast, it just too fast. i still rmbred the times where i thought tat sec 4 grad would be miles and ages away, tat was at the start of sec 4. den as time passes by, still i tot grad day was a far far affair. but now, sitting here, it was happened and passed. things are happening too fast. all we are left of now are just memories of our past. an indication tat it's time to move on? i feel reluctant to, the happy moments spent here are too painful to part with.

there would not be another time where we wild all be gathered in the same class with our frens and teachers, never again. it's all over. gone. never again will we be studying till 7pm in 4F at the 7th lvl and witness the sunset together. the times are victoria are just part of memories, and this shocking truth is hard to bare. just when we tot we were enjoying ourselves, it ended all so soon.

victoria was a place where we found our true identity, our strength and weakness. victoria was a place where we crossed over from kids to teenagers. victoria was a place where we matured. the emotional bondings we shared with both frens and teachers, through 4 years of thick and thin, laughter and sadness, peace and chaos, and now, all has ended.

how many would ever return from our class, reunited.. perhaps only a handful, the faithful ones, coming back year after year. but the feeling would never be the same again. just like my pri sch frens, they look lyk strangers to me now. i do not know their lives, they do not know mine. and sadly we were once so closely bonded, psyhchologically and physically. it's just sad tat another chapter in our wonderful secondary sch life has ended before us.

everyone has to learn to let go, it's just how long one takes to learn, and how painful it takes to let go.

let go j-wei, though the mind and soul is unwilling to.. a new chapther is about to unfold.

as we embark on our new journey, reaching out for furthur seas, would we ever look back? the ones who have helped us be who we are, the ones who have accompanied us to be who we are, our teachers, our frens, our guidence, our light, our happiness.

curtain call.

goodbye victoria.

i will be missing you..

shouted out at 8:42 AM

another closure in life. an end of a phrase. after tmr, our existence will all be part of our memories.. the rest of the world moves on, they always move on. life would be normal next year, it's like nobody ever remembered u were in this sch for 4 years. nothing would ever be the same again. all would be lost. memories would fade, the happy times spent together, everything, would slowly fade, and tt's how it would just be. it sad. the truth is hard to bear. the end is near. will we ever meet again, perhaps never. and even if we do, there wouldn't be any connection, no longer do we noe each other lyk before, just like a stranger, when we used to be so close in the past. it's sad, how everything would have to come to an end. relationships painfully built up through 4 years, all destroyed. sure we could keep in touch, but for how long? we soon will run in different tracks our our lives, keeping in touch would soon be a chore, and when we finally give up, tt's the closure of another wonderful frenship, another tie broken, lost. the truth is hard to bear, we will have to move on, forget everything, and start all over again. frens, teachers, all lost.

the end is near. cherish those those who care for you, those who have helped you along, frens, teachers, everybody, for the end is near.

learning to let go is the hardest part..

goodbye.

shouted out at 10:22 PM

depression sets in.. drowning the flicker of light within me.. the last hope of happiness has been extinguished, the comfort of human warmth and love no longer exist.. it's too much for me to take.. a souless heart, a mindless body.. the soul has long been defeated, but the body presses on. lyk a car running on tyreless metal rims, skidding through the highway.. braking wasn't on it's agenda, making it through the highway was.. with each step i take, each new day i enter, i leave with a tired and broken soul..

the fallen angel... the faded smile... the alienated soul... the intense solitude... the lone ranger...

seeking solace in the embrace of melancholy, i question when will the soul return from within.. will it ever? or is this the last of me..

the end is near.

shouted out at 7:55 AM

nabei cheebye flu. dunno how from flu now become mild asthma. nabei cheebye. my asthma had gone off alredy lor, since pri 5, now because of this nabei cheebye flu it come back again. nabei cheebye. can't even walk up a few flights of step now. can't even walk up the ramp in the hdb multistorey carpark. walk a bit short of breath. had to rely on ventolin. my dad so worried until 10pm drive me to mt alvenia hosptial, the medical fees bloody expensive. wait oso wait so cock long. nabei cheebye flu now become mild asthama. lucky after the doc gave me new course of medicine i feel better, or i will still be an asthmatic freak. nabei cheebye i now fucking hate flu. fuck flu. fuck flu. fuck flu. but now i can take lift up and down in sch lyk nobody's busniess. if any teacher gonna qn me and ask me to produce doc's mc, i have planed my little speech. it goes lyk dis: "NABEI CHEEBYE U TELL ME WHICH KUKU JIAO DOCTOR SO BLOODY FREE TO WRITE A "PLEASE ALLOW THIS PAITENT TO TAKE THE LIFT" EXCUSE LETTER. USE YOUR FUCKING BRAINS BEFORE ASKING ME. NABEI CHEEBYE DUN FUCKING WASTE MY TIME." woooo tat wld be cool. hahaha imagine chia's shocked face when u scream tat into him. whooooo tat wild be fun. aiay nvm la 1 more week graduate liao just pon sch all the way den won't kana canned. hahahahahaha.

becos of this nabei cheebye flu i can't fucking taste anythin tat i eat. hate it man. the food so nice but when u eat got no flavour. plus can't drink coke or any of tat type of drink, wah sebeh tulan. saturday go resturant eat, food so delicious but can't taste anything, only certian dishes den can't taste a bit. sebeh tulan. plus i have to drink the stupid bitter chinese tea instead of coke. i look ard all the other tables got free refill of F&N orange, the waiter pouring lyk free, every cup at other tables all got the fizzy fizzy orange colour COLD F&N orange, den i look at my table the waiter busy filling chinese tea. whoa tulan tulan. chinese tea look lyk urine taste so bitter. eat the food liao thristy drink chinese tea even worse, whole thoart kana fucked up by the bitter taste. den have to eat more food to drown the bitter taste, and the cycle continues... wah flu is the most irritating thing on earth.

and now i still can't smell or taste anything. TULAN TO THE MAX AH. but compared to friday i am much better. friday was hell. kana panadol overdose heart started beating so fast until i buay tahan. for the whole 3 periods or 1 hour 10 mins of the literature lesson i felt lyk dying. my heart was so tired. den after tat drink a lot of water to flush out the overdosage. tat night felt breathing difficulty resulting in my dad sending me in the middle of the night to the hospital. yeah it just links, the time line, haha, u shld read dis para first la, den scroll up to the start of the post.

school tmr again. but tmr monday, got english, brightens things up a little.

the whold world is plagued by disasters. the second coming is near...

shouted out at 8:04 AM

got A1 for cca points. lol. didn't know join scouts can get a1. have to thank kai urn and crew for giving me my first class award first, shit now i still owe them 4 hours of community service to complete the requirements for my first class award. actaully come to tink of it it was syf tat pulled us all up. with syf i got 10, without i would be getting 8. B3. so yeah. to get a1 for scouts u have to get cheif commissioner's award, which is as gd as cannot get. so no scouts dun provide us with a1, mental note to self.

woke up at 8 today. went to sch at 10 just in time for ms tham's lesson. i have mc to cover me since i am sick. no i am really sick. got flu. fuck the flu. cheebye nabei flu worse den dengue. feeling worse den death. nose always full of shit, den wan to blow oso cannot, cos blow alredi got blood come out, den dun blow very irritating, whoa i tell u ah if flu comes in the form of a person i would personally fuck the shit out of him. so anyway i walked into sch at 10am in the morning ylk nothing happened, took a lift somemore, the staff room lift. muhahhaa. wee hui toon saw me press for the lift and wait for it, but he lyk nv see anything went into the toliet. lol. i lyk some king. but anyway if ask i got valid reason. feeling drowsy after taking flu medicine. they can't fault me, though it would be common sense tat no one would take flu medicine which will make u feel drowsy and come to sch.

reached class just in time for ms tham's lesson. she was making her way to class, den she saw me walking from the bridge, and she waited for me leh. den we walked to together. she was quite shock to see me la. haha. felt over the moon for the rest of the day. furthurmore, my letter writing got top in class, lol, lucky i come sch. must be becos for letter i use shaun "sneaky" chook's name instead of my usual name, den she see got shaun's name she mistook it as shaun's letter, tt's why give so high. see biased. hahahaha. relax la shuan just kidding. shaun share's a very special relationship with our english teacher. the "in class quiet quiet but after sch lyk dragon" relationship. hhaha. no la tat was when ms tham first came to teach us. now quiet down alredi. am i rite shaun? lol.

rmbr a few posts back i said my bicicycle seat kana stolen.. ya my auntie msged me the other day and told me it was back. LOL. the theif very stupid. now i think there's a huge diff between condo thieves and HDB thieves. condo theives steal but hey will return. HDB thieves steal and dun return. so i have my bicycle seat back. the theif's a loser, i bought a new one anyway, an even better one. loser thief.

shouted out at 7:38 AM

tat basket fabian. go tell me can replace e math with 1 science subject if u pass your e math. make me happy. cos my e math B4, if can replace i replace with chem make it a B3, thus lowering my L1R5 again. basket fabian. make me happy happy in the english mock exmination hall for 1 hour 45 min. couldn't even really concentrate on my paper. tot really can do it lyk tat. den i asked ard after the mock exam and everybody say cannot. logically tinking, u have to include at least e math in your L1R5, otherwise u take e math for wat. so basket basket basket. but tat mr maran oso one kind, he print the class results for us to sign, print everything except the last page of the whole set, which contains the L1R5. whoa now i sebeh tulan because of fabian.

on the other hand if i really can use tat system, i will still be tulan. cos if i subst my e math for my chem, it will minus 1 off my L1R5, but den i checked today my chem got 69/100 after moderation and rounding up. i just need 1 more mark, in fact not even one more mark maybe just 0.8marks cos initially i got 68.3. the sytem rounds up all decimal places. so i will still be tulan cos i only need 0.8 more marks to jump another grade and therefore getting 9 for my L1R5. but tt is only if the system works, which i doubt so. basket la fabian. make me happy for nothing.

and today i found out tat farrell's a country pumpkin. we were taking the bus home, the bus took so bloody long to come, den we were all saying tat the bus uncle par chew cheng (wank) at the resting area behind our sch. so on the bus, farrell saw this lorry tat he tot it was carrying LPG cylinders. little did he know tat the lorry was actually carring Baron's Strong Brew Beer Barrels. not until i kindly pointed out to him tat is. apprently farrell is too blind to see the big words printed on the lorry which reads "BARON'S STRONG BREW". den after tat he saw a cement truck. and he commented tat this type of truck confirm got dengue mozzies. LOL. hamdan and cassidy both started laughing oso. firstly the barrel containign the cement was rotating, which means water isn't stagnant. from all the countless posters tat are pinned up everywhere (there are 2 in my lift, can u imagine how scary it is when the door opens and u see this mozzie staring at u. got shocked the first time.), dengue mozzies only breed in pure stagnant water. so boviously they can't breed in the cement mixer. secondly, the cement mixer carrys CEMENT not water. even my 7 yr old brother knows tat mozzies bred in water not cement. lol we suan farrell saun until he sebeh tulan, got nothing to say. muhahahaha

today's newpaper got report on ppl flaming others in blogs again. it's suppsoe to be an offence u noe. lucky i don't flame ppl ah. i don't blog anything tat says "XXX is a fucker." everything tat i say got evidence and proof and backup one lor. haha so even if wan sue me oso difficult, and besides there are no deflamatory remarks towards any individuals in my blog. haha. whoa if ppl say fuck to u den u can sue them, i will be rich ah. i tink shaun"sneaky"chook said fuck infront of me lyk 100 times, bastard lyk 70 times, and other other deflmmatory remarks. yes i can sue him and suck him dry of his wealth. and i can sue everybody who said the word fuck to me. go employ guvmen lawyer, den sue these ppl den ask these ppl to pay for my laywer's fees. whoa lyk tat still make money leh. not bad can consider taking it as a carrer path. suing for a living. but seriously la, if u are good, for example if u an excellent teacher, no one would insult u anywhere, in fact they will praise u. so maybe next time if anyone sees something bad written bout them, maybe they can ask themselves if they are guilty instead of sueing the guy. and if hoards of ppl start writing bad stuff bout u on thier blogs, it means something is seriously wrong with u. *hinthint* ahhaha

o's coming le. die ah die ah. can't seem to pick up. i notice for teh past few days got this psastic car which will aprk downstairs will block and start blasting sountracks from Blue. quite irriating at first, but den i tot Blue was quite nice after listening it to a few times. and besides tat car's audio system so clear, much better than those mozzie vans which will park under your block and start playing the "10minute mozzie wipeout". it's so muffled tat u can't hear anything and it gets irritaing.

now awaiting my final L1R5... hope the system really can use, but i tink very low chacne la. basket fabian... basket fabian...

shouted out at 8:07 AM