Wednesday, January 31, 2007
I m sorry I have to say it but you look like you're sad
Your smile is gone; I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in just a little more love
I promise you this, a little's enough
Monday, January 29, 2007
onitsuka tiger rocks. i dun care it's NICE. haha audrey u are the only one who say it isn't nice. so too bad. lol. btw i am quite pissed off. dis prick in vj oso has a pair of onitsuka's. no more exclusive to jwei. boohooo. ok my next pair wld be macbeths. 200 a piece. really no one has it in vj. eh wait. i think louis has one. he's rich enuff to own one. ARGHHH. nikes are a thing of the past. welcome to the world of exclusiveness. :)
I MET JAVIER HI ON THE WAY TO AARON'S PLACE! AND U ARE SHORTER THAN ME HAHAHAHAHA.
lol pai seh i forgot u in my previous post. so i shall make it up to u with dis mega one okay. hahaha
Sunday, January 28, 2007
saturday.
meet aaron at 2 at somerset. went over to cine left foot. tat marked the start of my search for a new pair of shoes. left foot has a wonderful supply of nike dunks, but the designs all look the same and every desing tat i see someone in vj has it. so if i buy nike, it's for namesake. and it's NOT cheap. so i decided to walk ard first.
aaron wanted to buy his crumpler bag. crazy guy. so we went over to wheelock. along the way i told him my life story. my sad life story. haha thanks bro for listening to me even through i was repeating the same thing over and over again. haha. so we entered wheelock. cool place. a great place to start spending money like free. haha. went over to crumpler. checked out aaron's potential bag. not cheap. 189 bucks. coolios. the fax deluxe. went over to nike to get paul a farewell gift, now here's the cool part, we walked past dis shop selling classic acsis shoes, and the designs looked quite cool, so we decided to go in and take a look. and within 10 minutes of trying and more trying, i bought a new pair of shoes. haha talk bout buying things on impluse. and i think the shopkeeper tot the both of us were gays cos i kept asking aaron how i looked in it. haha.
with my new shoes, we went back to crumpler and aaron bought his bag. den we hopped over to nike and got paul his farewell gift, wich was some nike shirt. so within 1 hour at wheelock, we spent a grand total of 330 bucks. we are proud contributors to the GDP of singapore. dun play play with us. kids with high spending power. haha i felt rich for once in my life. and i liked it. muhahahaha. maybe we shld go on more of such spending sprees yeah. haha.
went over to paul's church after tat. city harvest. it's at expo. a whole new kind of experience. to be honest, i ain't very impressed bout how the whole thing runs. the whole place is fashioned like a rock concert, and honestly speaking, if u dun see the lyrics of the songs there were singing, we may just think u are in the middle of muse concert. ok but tt is fine. wad borthers we quite alot is how the church does a wonderful job in hyping up the whole mood and atmosphere, how it does a fantastic job in building up on your emotions, but in terms so delivery of the message, i dun think they can make it. some things tat they say, it's quite scary. and the best thing is they repeat this song tat only contains 4 lines for 3 times and they sang it for half and hour each. imagine singing these 4 lines for half and hour. i seriously think i am being challenged intellectually. of cos it's easy to go with the flow, and just scream and shout and hop all around. the lyrics are simple, the song is catchy, any newcomer would be able to sing it within seconds. but if u sit back and take a look at the big picture. hey they are making me sing this song tat contains 4 lines for 3 times? and they want to build a church in a marketplace, claiming that it is to target working professionals. wow cool idea. but maybe on saturdays and sundays, raffle place is pretty much dead cos ppl do not go to work on weekends. and i dun think churches shld be build for convience of the people. if i have to travel from bishan to jurong to ateend a church service i wld gladly do so cos of my love for god. tat's the sacrifice that u make. u go to the church. the church doesn't come to your doorstep. so the idea of building a church in a marketplace doesn't really come through. and it's expensive. how much more money can be saved if the church is built in a cheaper district? and those money can be used to do god's work. sending missionaries and other stuff. why build such a lavish building in the middle of cbd. so when those ppl sitting in front of me start cheering and clapping about the building fund raised, i was quite doubtful. but of cos i am in no position to criticise, these are just my opinions.
and the most scary part is tat they ALL speak in tongues. oh my gosh me and aaron were FREAKED OUT. really freaked out. at some point, i have to agree with aaron, it kinda sounded like a cult. really scary. and ppl actaully cry after the pastor delivers his sermon. they claim it on the love of god, i think it's more of charged emotions of emotionally unstable teenagers. i dun see how the power of god can make u cry after the pastor gave u a sermon on "how valuable u are to god". i think your relationship with god is build up over a period of time where u experience it to believe in him. u dun come out crying only after 2 hours of sermon. it's scary and freaky to a certain point.
so tat sums up my whole experience about city harvest. but i wld have to abmit the sermon really sets u thinking, but not up to the point where u cry. and as for the songs, i really have nothing to say. so after the service we went out to have dinner, and chatted at aaron's place. it's been so long since we have last done it. old frens meeting up again. sitting in the same familar place where we used to spend wonderful times. just like old times.
Friday, January 26, 2007
life hasn't been very good dis week. or for any week since sch started for tat matter.
i dunno wad's happening to me oso. becoming very sensitive to my surroundings. over sensitive i guess. i am getting more emo more easily. and i slip into periods of self depression for no reason. and i get extreme mood swings. those tat change in 1 min. it's scary. but of cos i am trying to change tat. must be more oblivious to your surroundings. live life like a blur sotong!
lots of things have been happening. firstly, my bday's coming. haha i am finally nearing 18th. kinda scary considering tat being 18 is really quite very pretty old. but i dun really borther bout bdays anymore now. the last time i actaully yearned and counted down for my bday was when i was 14 or 15. since den i dun really care anymore. i guess we have all grown up and stop being excited bout bdays or christmas. haha. ok so next friday's gonna be my bday. i tot i cld keep it a hush hush, den xinhui had to go desing an odac calender for feb so now the whole odac knows my bday is on 2 feb. den somehow xianyi knows my bday. wich means my crewlet knows. and somehow ronghua and farrell knows. and the class knows. lol. i am dead lah. haha.
my lit proposal got rejected. lucky my mentor now is jeff lim. somehow i find tat he's better than any other lit teacher, cos he's more human. haha the other lit teachers godlike and when i talk to them i feel like i am the lowest lifeform. argh. yeah so my lit proposal got rejected, and i am suppose to come up with a new one by monday. congrats.
common tests are coming up. renee reminded me of the cold hard truth tat i only got 1 month more to common tests. wich means i have to start studying. but at the rate i am going, i think i m pretty damn screwed. which SHOULDN'T be the case cos dis is my yr 2. and i shld be mugging like what i did for sec 4, okay jwei has to start studying.
odac's having alot of stuff again. whole day pt and run. and there's alot of drama going on on bus 966. argh. just be oblivious. ignorance is bliss. curiousity kills the cat. live in your own imgainary world, it's better dis way. but anyway, odac is getting more meng at pt. doing quite abit of slep pt oso hopefully by some miracle i can train up. haha.
it's 12.30am rite now. saturday. welcome to a brand new day. i wake up being hopeful and happy, and go to sleep dissappointed and sad. tt's how life is everyday. me against the world.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
okay.. it's time i post. haha. it's been a while since my last post. back to mugging now. and i miss orientation alot alot alot. by some miracle, we seem to be all very bonded to our crewlet. or sub og.
haha. oregon is the bestest best crewlet ever!. seriously i am super touched by what they did for us. haha. had jts last saturday. meet at noon at parkway for fish and co. jts fish and co. whoohoo JTS fish and co leh. btw for all those who dunno wad jts is, it means JUNIOR TREAT SENIOR. haha. wich means FREE MEAL. plus we got huge spongebob balloons and cards made for us plus a bear bear keychain tat meixian made for everyone. wah the 4 ogls really super touched. haha. so we had fish and co. and talk cock sing song camwhored like crazy. so after tat we treated our crewlet to ben and jerry's ice cream. haha. i think they were quite surprised tat we were oso actaully treating them ice cream.
after that we went over to settler's cafe. haha some weird cafe that u go inside to play board games. haha. it's a freakin waste of money really. 12 bucks for 2 hours to play board games. i wld rather we buy the board game itself and play it at some open space. but well the money was worth it cos we spent our 2 hours doing crazy stuff, doing everything except playing board games. haha. super crazy. had alot alot of fun.
went to xianyi's hse after tat to watch lake house. haha. lake house beginning like super boring and draggy, but den the ending is super shoik. better than block buster. haha. and xianyi's mum treated us to canadian pizza! whoohoo thanks! haha wich means my lunch and dinner were both sponsored on tat day. the perks of being an ogl yeah. but i dun really care bout the free meals la, it's the bond tat i care about. we are all so closely bonded, ogls and jc1s alike. haha thank go! cos when i first became an ogl, tot i really regretted it cos everything was going shitty and my crewlet wasn't really bonded. but guess what now we are super close to each other! haha.
oh shit i think i nv blog for too long now my sentence strcutre and everything seems super weird. haha. let the pictures to the talking den..
oh btw i learnt dis new phrase. Carpe Diem. wich means seize the day. find it quite meaningful. so tat shld be my motto in life from now on. haha. full of shit.
settler's cafe! haha oregon rocks. handsome and pretty ppl :)
oregon ogls. i think my communist shirt rocks.
at east coast park before og bbq
what more can i say? OREGON.
camwhores.
12km worth of ice cream.
meixian and nat
fish and co!
more fish and co.
more more more fish and co
oregon! haha dis pic is super retarded cos u can actaully see a clear division of the boys and the girls. spastic.
whoohoo i love oregon. i wan more og outings :)
Monday, January 15, 2007
rahh i will post. just no time now. haha. i think my blog is dead again :(
Thursday, January 11, 2007
orientation is over and it simply rocked.
haha no regrets of joining ogl man.
and oh i got my math r paper back.
all my hardwork and effort and sacrifices.
god has eyes.
i got 87.5.
haha tt's an A. a big A.
whoohoo.
happiness.
ORPHEUS OREGON ROCKS.
miss them now.
a picture speaks a thosand words :)
oregon ogls. we rule.
oregon. hahaha day 1 at burger king.
at airport after sakae. whoohoo oregon rocks. hahaha
ORPHEUS OGLS.
bimin!!! haha up til now i still have no idea why she calls me jennifer the tranny.
me yuanli bimin wans and llama
WAN X BOX!!!
first 3 months part 2. hahaha everyone look so cute. lol esp stella she got the super scared smile. haha. and hui hui looks much better in cedar uniform. lol. of cos i look as cool as usual. HAHAHA
i hate school.
i hate lessons.
having post orientation blues now.
i miss orientation.
Friday, January 05, 2007
third day of og. so fast. things are getting better i guess, though some stuff can nv be changed.
my og's getting more and more enthu. haha. good sign. but too bad orientation is ending. quite sad lah after 3 days gonna say bye to them again. and den won't be meeting them often. tt's life. people come and go. everyone is just an ever changing background for your stage.
dennis came ytd for orientation. lol chatted with him and stuff. so felt much better after tat. it's like we haven't met each other for so long. haha had so much to catch up on, and a hell lot of problems. thanks man dennis. haha bloody crasher. lol den the best thing is we took a picture together during orientation. den i still tell him if tat picture kana used for some major slidershow or some shit i will laugh like a dog. den today IT REALLY CAME OUT. as an ending slide show. hahaha i think i can go buy 4D. but i dun think the sch knows he's a crasher. haha so nvm. lol. bloody dennis.
today was sort of the last day for orientation. den there was one part tat our ogs had to do some stuff on their own and their ogls cannot help.. so we were on stage and just looking at them coordinate and lead themselves for cheers. lol felt like crying after watching them.. haha super touching lah it's like all your hard work and effort put ionto these bunch of ppl and now they can finally be independant. haha. super proud of all of them. oh no i think i am becoming more and mroe emo. emo_boy89@hotmail.com
i am typing dis cos i am feeling alright today. but i am not sure if it will be the same tmr.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
math r paper finally over.
but till i get the results back, i am not gonna be relaxing.
seet's after my blood if i fail or dun pass well enough for my rpaper.
odac is, i dunno, but i am feeling tat we are losing the fire burning within us. things are starting to get sian. like tonight's dinner. nothing to talk, nothing to do, nothing at all. just eat.
or maybe i am just drifting away from them.
life used to be so smooth sailing. when there was love frens acadamics. now. gone.
things haven't been going on right lately. but i shan't bitch bout my life here and be narcissistic. i guess i am becoming more and more over sensitive. i read too much into other's actions and speech.
perhaps it's time for a change again. it's the year 2007. perhaps i shall be more cold blooded now. perhaps i shldn't act like a spastic fool anymore. perhaps it's time to take away my emotions, and live life without a heart. when u have no heart, there's no pain. when u have no emotions, u won't be so easily beguiled.
perhaps.
or perhaps. never.
it's day 3 of 2007.
i am dying slowly inside.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
tmr's math re paper.
2 months snowballed shit cos of math r.
i have mugged so hard for this day.
i have sacrificed so much for this day.
i have wasted so much tuition fees for this day.
heaven has eyes.
god has eyes.
i will PASS.
HERE I COME MATH R. here i fucking come.
