hello hello. okay national vertical marathon was cool. haha super fun. only 12 mins of pain. the rest of the 3 hours was fun and slacking ard and taking pictures on the uob logo infront of the bank and surprisingly it doesn't collapse even when 23rd of us lean on it. shall upload the photos when i have the time yeah.

tmr's mock nafpa. haha. yay. 2.4 run. i still cmi. 14mins for 2.4km but my 4.8km is 24min. so maybe i shld run 4.8 tmr and they half my timing. den i wld still pass my 2.4. haha ironic.

dis blog shall go into hiatus for 2 weeks cos of common tests. i really have no time to update at all. m pushing my body to the limit. last time i use to slp at 11.30. now i sleep at 12. haha. and of cos i wake up at the same time la. whoohooo. i am gonna die very soon. die with a spiteful heart. whoohooo.



...was it you that kept me wondering, though this life,
when you knew that i was, always on your side.

shouted out at 7:30 AM

cts are in 1 week time. i just started mugging ytd. sad to say, but i am screwed and i know it but i can't do anything about it. the irony. the irony of knowing the end result, but still doing it the wrong way. but everything that i do now is in vain. u know u are definately screwed when u haven't started studying and cts are in 1 week.

i can't study in odac room anymore. the smell, the heat, the noise. it's like an oven. an oven with an anti-studying aura. i have learnt my lesson from promos, never ever study in the odac room. no matter how hard i studied, any knowledge tat goes into your brain inside the odac room wld be equilvalent to none. and my promos screwed up big time.

odac is getting increasingly frustrating. time consuming is one thing, unreasonable is another. oh well everyone's warped. i am warped too. no one in this world is a saint. pple change over time, for better or for worse. those who u thought are your closest turn out to be the very ones that hurt you.


purge the world of flirts and hyprocrites.

shouted out at 7:56 AM

i am losing my sanity.

shouted out at 7:57 AM

i got sick and tired of my ipod. so i decided to listen to the radio for better songs. tt's the bad thing bout ipod, u listen to the same old songs until u get sick and tired of them. maybe apple shld invent an ipod tat downloads songs automatically from radio. save us the trouble of downloading them from the net.

cross country ytd. the start part of the run was very fun, cos the whole world was running, and i was like cruising with the crowd. but then i realised tat i am still sick with flu and i am still very weak.. so it all hit me at the middle part of the run and i almost died. but i made it back with nat. haha. my inspiration. see basketball guy same speed as me, wa accomplishment. so we chiong in together. haha.

but i am still very sick now. so i will have to rest. cannot exert anymore, or will really die.

cts in 1 week time. i am trying my best to mug but i keep getting distracted. damn sian.




oh dis is our jts combined class photo. the person who took dis picture shld never ever hold a camera in his life again. who in the world wld focus ont the floor when everybody's behind? half the photo is the floor. argh. but anyway i think our junior class rocks. hahaha. really they are a bunch of very happening ppl. reminds me of a14. argh those happy days...

shouted out at 7:00 AM

i hate the world and it's deceit.

shouted out at 6:29 AM

third day of chinese new year. still sick with stupid flu. somehow my method of using poison to fight poison didn't really work. my staple diet these few days have been bakkua and coke, but somehow i am still not cured of my flu. maybe the poison needs to be more poisonous. so er i think i try maybe wine plus coke plus bakkua plus pineapple tarts. hmm tat shld be poisonous enough.

cross country tmr. argh how to run when i am still sick? haha so i think i gonna run slowly. walk in the park. too bad ecp dun have bikini babes. we shld hold our cross country at sentosa. den i think i will run 10 times oso dun mind.

reading dis book called brighton rock right now. haha it's for my lit h3, one of the texts wich i wld be using. tat is provided my proposal gets approved by cambridge. right now they are still eating bakkua at home, so i guess they haven't seen it yet. haha. oh anyway, i think i am becoming more and more like the ppl inside the book. this heartless protagonist called pinkie. i think i am becoming more like him. this world has no capcity for love and kindness. it's just filled with deceit and betrayal. hoho, i think one of these days i may just end up being a murderer. so all of u better treat me better now. haha.

oh and i am addicted to this song. What if god is one of us. it's by josh osbourne. it's very good. the lyrics, the tune, everything. haha thank you zhuang yong for sending it to tracy jie jie and den tracy jie jie sending it to me. haha.

i realise the moment i post i start posting alot. but if i stop posting i won't post for months.

shouted out at 3:04 AM

midweek report:

gnp per angpao has increased but angpao input has decreased. which means i am experiencing a decreaing growth compared to last year. dis year gnp per angpao hit a new high, seeing more blue notes in angpaos now. shoik. i love the smell of new cash. tt's the smell of materialism.

so before the gst increases again, i think i will get a new set of stereos for my room. it high time for my 20 year old hifi set tat is completely spoit to go. i think not even faris wld wan my hifi set. hahaha. whooohoooo new stereos!!! must have radio plus a jack for my ipod. den i can blast my music. tt's a positive externality for all my neighbours. ahh u see i am so kind such a good person, always giving positive externalities to everyone, and in the end i am always at the reeiving end for all the negative ones. life is unfair.

common tests are coming up in 2 weeks time. to be honest with u i have really start studying, but i am going to start tmr. i must promise myself. it's a promise i have made since the start of the cny holidays, when i had big dreams of completing all my revision. well i guess now i can just settle for completing all my holiday homework. anyway, i hate those ppl who keep saying they are not studying for cts and they are going to fail. feel like slapping all of them. damn hypocrites. if dis was coming from vs, maybe i wld still believe, but in vj, even a person with 4 Us studies for common tests, so dun come give me all the gung ho bullshit tat cts are meant to be flunged. how ironic it is, when those who claim they do not study are seen as puritans, while those who claim tat they actaully study for cts are branded as social outcasts. life is an irony. the world is forever warped. ahh i hate those hypocrites. so i am going to tell everyone here, i am going to mug like a dog for cts. though the fact is i will never do well for them no matter how much effort i put into studying. my promos have proven it much. argh. life is so unfair.

1 more day of holiday to go, before sch reopens again. before stalls reopen. before the world starts to turn again. the future doesn't seem tat bright for me does it? or maybe i am just being a hypocrite again.

ohh anyway, this kinda occured to me. haha. we have been through the pain and suffering, and we know how love will hurt and will always hurt again and again, but yet we still actively pursue love, cos we all know, while it lasted, the feeling's so darn good.

life is an nothing but an irony.

shouted out at 8:33 AM

still trying to grapple with the fact that sara's gone. all we can do is wait till july when she returns. sometimes, it is only when we realise that someone is gone, den we start to treasure and miss them. dunno why but been missing sara quite abit. lots of stuff reminds me of her. like today was playing with my relative's dog, den i rmbred kitty, and how lonely she was at home rite now without sara, and kitty doesn't even know tat sara is leaving her forever. looking back at all the odac photos oso, all the crazy stuff we used to do, and all the crazy stuff we wld have done together. but now tat she's gone, it's like an end to a chapter, a passing of a time. well all we have now are photos, and memories, at least those will last forever.

the picture says it all.

memories.

oh btw happy 18th birthday tracy jie jie!your officially 18th now. haha but i think u are still 5 mentally. oh well u are back at your kampong in malaysia chasing chickens and ploughing the padi fields now. haha.



and one more thing, i have finally found out who tat annoymous fucker is. but it's okay i shan't name tat pussy wimp here cos he chooses to hide behind his computer. haha wad a loser, but can't blame him lah, pussy wimps do exist on dis earth. anyway he's too blind now to read all these stuff, no wonder he hasn't been coming here lately. to think i still sympathised with him and ask him to get well soon when he was injured. hahaha. shall let tat pussy wimp slide, he's blind now anyway, we do not fight with handicaps.

okay shall update more often. life's very busy. and i got no mood at all for cny. ahh please come home soon sara bay.

shouted out at 8:45 AM

heya. it's been a long time since i last posted. well actaully i wanted to do my bday post. but so many things happened these few days. listening to emo song rite now so feeling kinda sad.

sara left for australia yesterday. feeling very sad actaully. somehow everything just happened too fast. we didn't have enough time to mentally prepare ourselves, we didn't spend enough time with sara before she left. it's saddening, to see someone whom shared that close bond as an odac family, leave for a place so distant and far. but what can we do but just watch silently, as she fades away, beyond the gates. although we kept saying tat she will come back, we all knew tat things wld nv be the same again. it's like all the promises tat we kept with our primary school classmates, those frens forever pledges, which is now long gone, for most of us have forgotten strangers whom we once called frens. and the very fact that we know such a thing is going to happen, makes it even sadder. but for now, we can only hope and pray, tat when she comes back, everything wld just be the same as she left. time will heal all wounds.

life is so unpredictable. treasure those around you. before it's too late.

sara, we will miss you dearly.

shouted out at 6:10 AM

tomorrow.

it's me against the world.

shouted out at 7:18 AM