some things are definately worth rmbring. was looking back at past photos and it certainly brought back good memories..

royce and his double chin.

haha big deal i oso got to take picture with felicia chin. the times when i still belonged in a14, when everything was still like a fairy tale.

dis was our first and alst kayak outing tat we had. it was hell fun. too bad i am not in the picture cos i came late had church in the morning. see i am a good boy :) and dis was when odac 23rd was still not chosen, when everybody were still close frens cos we just came through from olc hell together. well tt's quite impossible now.

take me back to the past. the present's not worth living.

shouted out at 8:23 AM

we finally played floorball for pt on friday. so it can be done. it's not impossible. personally i tink all my life of going for pt dis one is the most exciting cos we finally got to play floorball.

dramanite was next. i realise the sudden change of atttiude in many of us. last year we wld dress up nicely for every event, now we dun borther anymore. i tink my uniform is the nicest suit on earth. so the whole class went in uniform to watch stuff tat required a higher order of thinking to understand wad's going on, drama plays are more like literature prose passages, got deeper meaning tat u must slowly tink and get it. but i tink it's only unique to vj dramas, cos we have higer order literature student-directors like renee. but yeah it was an enjoyable experience on the whole, although i almost dozed off cos of pure boredom. i tink last year's one was much better, much engaging, much simpler to understand. argh why do we keep comparing with better times? if we set a benchmark for everything, we wldn't be contented with anything.

anyway drama nite made we tink of lit again. argh my lit is going down hill like crazy. i dun even noe wad's happening, and it's scary cos if i dun do anything about it very soon i am gonna find myself trapped in a bottomless pit. and the scary thing is tat there's nothing much i can do about it. wad do u wan me to do? read duchess of malfi 10 times? it doesn't work tat way, and i am damn afraid. h3 is oso in a bloody big mess. i dun even noe wad i am doing. honestly, i tink h3 is just for namesake. a hollow shell. a sweet facade. yes rachel is am damn bloody stressed up cos nothing's going right in my life. so i have decided something tat i have taken for granted for a damn long time. i am going to mug for lit.

i really miss last year when i was really happy. the times with a14, well i guess i finally got over a14 sometime late last year. no tat does not mean i am comfortable with s63, we just can't click. sometimes i wonder, if i am still in a14, i tink i wld really be contented. cos at least i can mix with guys. at least we can have fun together and do crazy stuff tat u can nv do with girls. spending every single day of my life with girls is not really an enjoyable thing to do. but wad choice do i have. make samuel my best fren? it's impossible. i have given up dis hope a very long time ago. when u are missing dis integral part of your college life, i dun tink u can be fundamentally happy. damn it give me a bunch of guys whom i can mix with.

when the class fails, i only have odac to turn to. i really miss the joy tat odac has given to me. the period of time when we were preparing for ot was super fun, and i miss it. i miss vietnam. esp the trip on the train from hanoi to sapa. the feeling of being so insecure yet so secure. stare out of your cabin window, u see the busy night scene of vietnam. u see a whole new world tt is so unfamiliar, so insecure. imagine yourself out there, alone, lost, with no frens and no one to guide u home. but yet we are all safe inside our cabins, all the familiar faces, familiar sights and sounds. strange ain't it, tat your insecurities are just separted by a train cabin. it's like an inner ring tat keeps us safe, an inner circle tat provides us with tat sense of security. yet dis circle is so thin but so reliable. i like tat kinda feeling. the feeling of being so vunerable yet so protected. and the times we ventured out into the streets of hanoi late into the night, the feeling of venturing into the unknown. the thrill and excitement. the new found freedom. the feeling of being so vunerable yet so protected. the warm sensation tat fills your heart when u know tat your frens are next to you, and tt's when u truely understand the meaning of frenship. the feeling of being so safe in a crazy unfamiliar world.

odac has given me all these, and so much more. and i am quite sure no other cca provide tat kind of satisfaction in life. tt's why i thank god for making the right decision to join odac. and of cos all my fellow odacers. as we return to our busy lives, few of us often look back at the past. but when we do, we would discover so much more.

take me back to the past.

shouted out at 9:02 AM

time really flies. damn fast. tmr's friday again. another week has passed so quickly. pt today ran 5 rounds outside sch. i dunno why but i tink my stamina really deproved again. felt like shit throughout the run when it's supposed to be a relaxing pace. argh. dunno wad the hell is happening. and ytd night i suddenly woke up at 12.30am i just couldn't slp until 2am. it's damn freaky. my brain was damn tired by eyes were tired but i just couldn't fall asleep. haiz. oh so anyway pt is really getting damn bloody boring. i know i am not in any position to criticise, but really it's damn predictable. we wld go for a run wich distance is decided like at the last minute, and den it WOULD ALWAYS BE CAPTAIN'S BALL. play until damn bloody sian so i decided not to paly today. freakin freakin sian from last year it has always been bloody captain's ball. i dun belive we can't play floorball cos the sailors were playing it behind at the basketball court. we dun need the astroturf or hall to play floorball. bloody hell. even if dun play floorball at least do sth different lah.

anyway i ponned captain's ball and did sth much more interesting. haha dis sc guy, shit man i dun even noe his name so pai seh.. he gave me a life demo on how the sea fish in dis fresh water tank beside the koi pond ate a life prawn. it's super cool cos the prawn is almost tranparent in water. so he caught one and transfered it into the sea fish tank, and the sea fish is freakin smart cos it will corner the prawn and suddenly just gobble it up. haha and i realised nemo the clown fish only cost 1 buck. freakin cheap lah. and ppl have been stealing the fishes in the fresh water tank. haha. retarded stuff tat u will nv get to find out if u dun pon captain's ball.

ok for now i shall go find out the sc guy's name. hahahaa so he can tell me more bout the fresh water tank :)

drama nite tmr! must go immense myself in arts and drama. be more REFINED. oh i alr am. haha.


and HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO JASMINE TYE IN ADVANCE!!!!!!!!

shouted out at 7:59 AM

ALL RANDOM




06s63. all star cast of yan daos and chio bus. haha.


psychedelic!


wasted cash down the drain in the name of frenship. i earn bullshit.



dis is wad sony erricson phones can do to your normal pictures. super cool. i tink nokia is seriously becoming inferior. argh. i wan to change my fone to a sony erricson..

shouted out at 7:18 AM

levis footwear is damn sexy man. owned ontisuka. hahaha.

and stellastory ROCKS.

whoohooo angels and phantoms.

shouted out at 11:46 PM

it's not everyday that crumpler comes out with such stunning products. the new season's here, and my hands are itchy to switch to another crumpler. hahaha. this is the best of the lot.

so which one will it be folks?

shouted out at 6:53 AM

odac outing today. it was super impromptu cos of sara. but the response was really quite good. almost everybody turned up. actaully it's quite sad, cos dis is like the first time in our one and a half years tat we actaully go out for a proper dnr in outside clothes. dis is like the first time i see everyone in outside clothes. haiz quite sad tat we only come together when there's a pressing need, like today it was for sara cos she's flying back nxt sat. why can't we have more of such impromtu random outings? maybe just a dnr or sth, we dun have to eat super expensive places, just normal coffee shop i really dun mind. just to sit down and talk cock i guess.





but somehow today's outing was different from previous ones. more dead and bored. i guess after one and a half years, we have lost the drive and sprit. i still rmbr tat when we were first pis, every outing was so exciting cos we had so much to find out about each other, so much more to discover. every step we took was virgin, every step we took, we discover new things about each other. i guess now tat virgin path have been cleared and rewalked over and over again. we know each other so well tat it gets quiet and awkard at times. the silence is taking is toll. haha. but of cos i still enjoyed the dnr, and i wan more. monster and liwen left half way. scandalous. xiaoyun left soon after oso. her mood swings are becoming more and more extreme, she's like in her own world now, really getting more and more volatile. oh but tat's guardian angel's business, i guess no one will have tat capacity of time and patience to talk to her.





tat aside, we definately had fun yeah! :) haha but somehow i tink odac guys are all not on the same frequency. we can't really talk, except bout adventure races or retarded youtube videos or borat. haiz. but i am contented, more than happy. with each small step we take, we are closer to rekindling tat old flame tat has been so small yet burning so steadily.





families often drfit apart, but tat strong bond keeps us within.

***

a14. u're the reason why life in vj has been so fufilling. really grateful tat i was once part of this wonderful class. argh the good old days...

shouted out at 7:50 AM

musicfest!!!

haha it all started to get fun when everybody started pushing and cutting queue to get into the auditorium. the scs were abit brainless, they are asking a whole crowd of ppl to stand in 2 single rows and discuss with the person in front of u whether hu to go first. LOL. A for effort, F for feasibility. but anyway it was super fun, pushing my way through and everything. haha but when i finally got in THERE WERE NO FREAKIN SEATS LAH. all the bloody crashers koped our seats, u shld see the difference after the intermision where the crashers couldn't come back in.. the empty seats were ABUNDANT. screw those crashers.

but dun really care as long as i can watch the whole show i am contented. haha persnally i tink dis year's one not as good as last yr. i tot last yr got more hype and quailty in the music. perhaps it's just the ppl i was going with lah. all the a14 ppl and randall., those good old days. haiz. yeah anyway i saw jocelyn yeo. tat national swimmer or sth. i tink she looked much prettier in real life. but those biceps are inhuman.

it's 1.15am now. super sian dunno wad i am doing oso. addicted to coldplay and river maya. emo songs. haha. random pics will be posted in my nxt post.

shouted out at 10:05 AM

hello world. i am going for musicfest and no one's gonna stop me :)

shouted out at 8:29 AM

your sweet facade fails to enchant.

yesterday is dead and over.

goodbye.

shouted out at 8:23 AM

BAIK AH PRAVIND!!! HAHAHAHAHA

JUZ-ICE

shouted out at 9:15 AM

SARA BAY'S BACKKK!!!!

whoohooo. hahaha sara's finally back! for 2 weeks though. bu enough time to take our batch photo and go for a decent outing. super glad she's back. and even more glad tat there isn't any gap between her and us cos she's gone for a short period of time only. it was like as though she nv left. :) oh sara how we have missed u so much :):):)

as we celebrate and have fun on good friday, let's not forget bout god.

RANDOM PICTURES

retarded.

self explanatory.

krispy kreme! stella said it always appears on simpsons, haha dunno how true. but they certainly taste good. shit man why singapore dun have such good stuff.

this is damn retarded oso. TMNT!

vj kids are rich.

shouted out at 1:44 AM

so i am in the econs tuition tat liang kai xiang went and got an A for econs. muhahaha. ok but tat doesn't necessary mean tat i will oso get an A. oh but i think the tuition's not too bad. they make it a point to explain to u all the concepts and actaully let u practise it. vj lectures are just touch and go and u dun understand a single thing. tat's why no one listens to econs lecture. econs lecture is a free and easy period for u to do whatever u wan to do. like today i wrote huihui's bday card during my econs lecture. hahaha.

oh but i discovered how u can earn money from tat tuiton. it's freakin crazy, they give u 20% commision of your fren's tuition fees, wich is 360. 20% is freakin a hell lot of money. 72 bucks. so sui hui sort of introduced the 3 of us to the tuition, so she's gonna get 216 for commision. TAT'S A FREAKIN HELL LOT OF MONEY. must get her to treat us to crystal jade or sth. haha. oh btw if anyone wan to join my tuition, say i intro de, so i can earn 72 bucks per person. wah i can actually make a living out of this man. good and easy money. haha.

school is ever so screwed up. moe has banned the canteen from selling fried food. it's freakin retarded and totally screwed up. u are not allowed to deep fry anything but u are allowed to fry with little oil. WHAT'S THE DIFFERENCE. and cos of this stupid rule, the poor western food stall has nothing to sell. and my fries are gone. my chicken cutles oso gone. every damn thing fried and nice is gone. screwed up piece of shit. and listening to our princiapl addressing the sch in the morning is damn frustrating. the other time, he took half and hour to tell us this simple sentence tat "vs and vj may be merging." and today he spend another half and hour talking to us about sch conduct tat we can easily read those few sentences at the notice board outside the general office. seriously his speeches are redundant and a waste of our time. i have no idea why no one has stopped him, maybe cos he's a the principal. tat's bloody warped. talk about democracy. and the worse thing is his voice is superhigh pitch, it's like a shrill so u can't slp cos his voice pierces into your brain. he can become my alarm clock. CONFIRM PLUS CHOP i will wake up everyday. argh vj is getting more and more screwed up these days.

oh and i may be able to keep my lit h3. muhahahaha. i tink mrs lim registered me for lit h3 alr. so once it's registered i guess it's more or less confirmed tat i am in the course. haha. although i have no idea how i am gonna survive it. come what may. but education is freakin costly. h3 costs the most, ard 150 bucks for the exam. and right now my econs tution cost me 360. sats exam wld cost me another 150. tt's alr 660 bucks to education. and they were still promising us tat education is free and heavily subsided. maybe for u 660 is heavy subsided, but to me, and to the rest of the poorer ppl out there like faris the beggar, it's freakin expensive. and now faris have to beg full time to have enuff cash to pay for his sch fees. my sympathy goes out to u my dear faris. sorry but i won't donate a single cent to u.






love those who love u.
hate those who hate u.

let's start the holocaust.

shouted out at 7:46 AM