Friday, March 28, 2008
life illustrated
it's about time i posted some pictures
kota tinggi 08!
really shoik to return to the place where we first experienced hot to climb a mountain. well it was a mountain to me den, but i realised it's just a waterfall. i think it's just a hill. just a more dangerous hill. but danger is fun. life shldn't be restricted to the four walls of the office. working class heros need to have some danger in their lives too. or life wld just be mudane. yes the thrill of danger and the thought of falling and breaking something thrills me. is that a mental condition? maybe i can down pes with that. haha. anyway, certainly glad that odac wld always be there to do crazy stuff like climb a waterfall. i mean who wld wanna climb a waterfall and risk slipping and falling. odac rocks. even though we are all of different frequencies. or perhaps it's just me
retard 1
retard 2
stella is obviously very thrilled by leaves and more leaves.
before the climb!
waterfall makes people happy =)
the waterfalls are really quite huge and grand. just tt they look pathedic in pictures. if u look carefully u wld see it stretches all the way up up and up. and mind u the rocks are slippery.
this is supposed to be poignant and emo. hoho.
retard 3
retard 4
tt's all we had for dnr, trust me it's not enough at all man. and xiaoyun doesn't look human here. or maybe she always isn't human. hahaha xy can your sla web browser view pictures?
2 generations of odacers yo.
sunset on base camp. the stars at night are the ones tt are really pretty. just tt our cameras are not able to take it. i feel kinda cheated by nokia for buying a 5 meg cam fone that doesn't capture the stars in the sky.
yes so from the above pictures, u can conclude that kota tinggi was hell fun, and your odac seniors are just a bunch of retards. hahaha. climbing the waterfall for a second time was really very very different. still rmbred the first time i really freaked out at every obstacle that came along. but after climbing real mountains, this is really nothing man. haha. and it was worth missing out 2 open houses to go for this climb. anyway open houses dun really help. dun waste time. yes i knw i'm believing in my own delusion again. hahahah.
click five world tour: destination phuket, thaliand
we make frens with almost anyone. and yumi i'm the lead singer of click five and my name is kyle patrick. hahaha
so. i haven't been lying when i said life's a blast :)
CHEERIOS!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
quote of the day by GERI HOR
"nite cycling need to apply for permit?"
I laughed till i cried. Haha yes u nid to apply permit from lta and u nid to tell them your route and what u're gonna do along the way. And den they wil issue u a permit and tell u the average speed you're allowed to go. HAHAHA!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
stop and stare, i think i'm moving but i go nowhere.
it is disturbing how our society runs strictly on conformity. and its not surprising, meritocracy can only be advocated if conformity is enforced. our society is stratified nicely into different boxes, as long as you conform, you'll be safe. our first lesson on conformity started on day one of primary one. everyone wore uniforms and white bata shoes. i'm sure all of us wld recall seeing those blur kings wearing home clothes, and in the mass of white, they stand out from as far as you can spot them. while you find them to be displeasing to the eyes, they themselves are embarrassed that they are the center of attraction. this incident becomes the foundations for a much bigger situation as we move on in the education ladder. from this initial displeasure, it manifests into detachment, and finally condescension.
meritocracy is most clearly illustrated in tertiary education. u're either in ite, poly, or jc. all of us are made to conform. well of cos there's a fourth, and tt's "primary school drop-out". kinda impossible to achieve unless u're really fucked up. anyway, it is clear how jc kids start to detach ourselves away from poly kids, both physically and emotionally. it's human nature, and a painful remainder that we're controlled and manipulated by greater forces than ourselves. i believe fate is pre-ordained. unless u're super determined, u can't really change the box wich u're classified into. how often do u see poly kids joining jc cirriculum in the middle of the year. none perhaps. yeah anyway, after detachment comes condescension, and for this i can only blame it on elitism. i'm a victim of elitism, and it is not my capacity to change it. many of us are guilty of condescension. who doesn't despise those ugly ah bengs in RED skinnies and slippers trying to delude themselves that they are the coolest trendsetters on earth. they shld just be eradicated from the face of this earth. but of cos i do not condescend poly kids, i respect them. it's just those ah bengs and mats. shan't elaborate on mats cos it's sensitive ooooooo.
and what happens when u fall into the cracks between these boxes? what happens when you fail to jump from one box to another? sadly for meritocracy, there's no safety net. u fall straight down to the bottom, and nothing can really help you. for those who managed to jump into another box, it is painful to see frens who do not make it in. for me, i can safely say i've landed in the middle of the next box, but it's saddening to see some of my closest frens not being able to make it, and i can do nothing but watch them fall deeper and deeper into oblivion. whatever i say becomes superficial, and some may find it even spiteful and condescending.
i really can't imagine what i'll do if i did badly for a's. it's too frightening. yet for some, the nightmare is a reality. the education system is so flawlessly designed that it ensures no time lags in between. the journey is smooth, but tt's only if u conform. if you don't, then u find yourself in a real fucked up situation. you can only retake a's with your sch if u failed one subject. if you retake as a private candidate u're gonna fuck it up even more badly than you did before. cos u're gonna be juggling army and part time studies together. furthermore, if full time studies got u bad results, wad do u tink part time studies wld achieve? and with those grades you can't get into a decent course of your choice in local unis. u're stuck, u've just become a victim of meritocracy and elitism. u're lost and u're forgotten by the rest of the world who moves on. i still rmbr pravind. he got retained in sec 3. i was best of frens with him then, and now, we don't even keep in contact. but it is those that fall into the cracks of society whom i respect most. they are able to face failure and stand strong. for people like me, i'm really not very sure if i'll be able to survive if i'm faced with failure one day. all my life, things have been going smoothly and according to what i've planned. god has been gracious and kind. or perhaps it's the good karma tt i've accumulated, wich is kinda strange cos i think i'm evil haha.
entrenched in a world of materialism and elitism, we're often too busy chasing our materialistic needs and climbing the corporate ladder. take a step back, and u'll be able to see the the degradation beneath the sweet facade. equality is bullshit, someone shld change our pledge. when you grades suck, u dun get accepted for any scholarships, u dun get accepted in uni courses, u dun get accepted for anything. and it's not that u didn't work as hard as those who got 5As. i'm sure everyone studied just as much. it's just the biggest luck and chance game that u've played in your life. what determines a 22/30 essay and a 23/30 essay? why did the marker award you with an extra one mark? cos of your neater handwriting? or cos she was in a better mood? everything's so subjective, yet the final grade is crystal clear. while one mark may be trivial, it actually determines between an A and B. 4Bs and 4As is a freakin freakin big difference.
at the end of the day, isn't it disappointing that a pink slip of paper determines your enter life? i'm really quite sick and tired of this whole education system. i'm sick and tired of seeing frens fall into these cracks, yet not being able to help. i'm sick and tired of my life. it's hollow.
we're mere puppets of destiny.
"We are merely the stars' tennis-balls, struck and banded Which way please them."
- the duchess of malfi
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
i hate doing scholarship and uni applications. sucks bad bad bad bad bad. just glad this is the final week and after this it wld be over and done and all my uni and scholarship stuff wld be just over. OVER.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
the illusion of safety.
long overdue post here again. came back from phuket quite sometime ago. well not exactly memorable, but it was certainly a relaxing one. phuket is one mass of a huge failure. i tink it shld be deleted from the face of thailand. the shopping sucks cos the variety is super little and the prices are expensive. u can find better bargain at changmai or bangkok. and the sun in phuket is really imba and unforgiving. i've this theory that phuket is right on the hottest part of the equator, i dun take geog so i dun know where exactly the equator lies. or maybe it's just a first sign of global warming. yes but we went sun tanning for one morning and i got sun burned so badly my upper back was practically immobile for the rest of the days. and now i'm still peeling like mad. it's super gross, shall not go into the details. and yes prostitutes and trannys run rampant in phuket, and somehow the old American uncles don't mind sleeping with them. maybe they think women with dicks are exotic, but i'm certainly disgusted. it's the lowest form of social degradation, and it just destroyed the whole image of phuket as a nice sunny beach. but well the company was fun. ting mingyi chang farrell. and not forgetting the ultra cheap swensens ice cream and phad thais. their phad thais really damn shoik shoik shoik man. i tink thai pan's chef shld really go there and learn how to make real phad thai.
so thailand came and went. four days of escape from reality, four days where i ddin't need to think of any scholarships/uni applications, or worry about anything else. i miss that kind of feeling now. but of cos the phuket heat just turns me off. new zealand wld definitely be a better option for a getaway. hahaha.
after thailand came the nightmare of scholarship applications. i really dun understand why different scholarship wants to ask different questions. it's absolutely retarded and a waste of time. but well tt's just how things are, and that's how things will be.
"in all our quest of greatness, like wanton boys whose pastime is their care, we follow after bubbles blown in the air."
Thursday, March 20, 2008
if delusion is the only way i can seek solace, i rather be deluded.
sometimes the truth is too hard to bear.
Friday, March 14, 2008
hello world! I'm at changi airpost inside the gate now waiting for the plane wich jus got delayed. Budget airlines certainly don't like to keep to their timings. Hoho i'm off to phuket yo! And my hp rocks it can actually blog! Haha see ya kids!
Thursday, March 13, 2008
denouement.
okay it has been a real really long time since i last blogged. too lazy and too busy.
well it's a coincidence i'm actaully blogging this one week after results day. one week ago at this time i was contented and happy. when sihan called me at 9am in the morning to tell me my results, i really couldn't and didn't believe wad she was saying. but then ronghua called me oso, and den kum kay called me and read off my results from the board, so yeah i guess i had to believe it then.
i guess to everybody results matter most, at this point of our lives at least. it kinda determines everything. getting good results open up doors to everything. and i'm certainly glad that god has given me this opportunity once again. it really came as a surprise, cos i didn't believe my brain has such capability of performing to such optimal standards. i dun think optimal shld be the word here, more like exceptional. hahaa. it's really god's grace. thank GOD. and of cos, big shoutouts to farrell chan samuel ting and changyi whom we always mugged together in school and siglap cc. really had alot alot of fun studying with you guys, and of cos all the emo emo emooo. and to the siglap cc auntie who only smokes marborlo reds for her encouragement and someone to talk cock with. and to spc's super imba creamy chicken pie and one dollar ice lemon tea. haha i ate like two pies eveyrday. super super shoik one. and of cos to my dad who became my personal chauffeur. thank you all! all the late night studying certainly paid off.
yet even as we celebrate this denouement, i can't help but feel sad. another stage of our lives have ended, it is inevitable that frens wld be lost, and memories wld be all that's left. i'm quite certain i'm never gonna study with farrell again, neither am i stepping back into siglap cc. the familiar sights and sounds wld all be history. that's why i've realised that life's so transient and mutable. nothing is permanent, we're all in transit.
and of course, the sense of helplessness to those whom didn't do so well. i really do not know wad to say to them, cos wadever that comes out would sound very hypocritical. it is easy to say "don't worry, everything wld turn out fine in the end.", but deep down we all know there's a hell lot of worry about. meritocracy seriously sucks. yet wad are we to do about it, when we're insignificant to the greater forces that dictates our future.
CONGRATS L W LAM! bugger u earn 1.9k a month for bmt. tt's good good good pay man. and from this photo i can conclude my hair sucks and i'm fat :(
ANYWAY, phuket here i commmmmmeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :):):):):)
i find myself vacillating between knowing the truth and being delusional. but issit wrong that we all need to dream?
Sunday, March 09, 2008
LIFE HAS BEEN A BLAST
results rocks.
kota rocks.
WIILL BLOG WHEN I'M MORE FREE AND LESS TIRED
=)
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
on the edge of the threshold.
well i haven't been blogging much these days even though i'm super uber uber free the whole day. i'm plain lazy hoho and i dun really care.
tmr's friday, the day we've all been dreading, and secretly waiting for. it's absolutely sad and disappointing how a piece of paper can literally determine your entire life. 12 years of education and here we are at the crossroads once again. unlike o's, a's is much more clearcut and extreme. if u can get into uni, good for you, if u can't, u go back all the way to poly and restart again. there are no grey areas, so it's either do or die. and once again, i've returned to the table to bet my life again. every single piece of my life.
and i don't like to play with luck.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
for the day of reckoning is near.
Monday, March 03, 2008
Let's run away.. name a place,
Where the air tastes like rain & the sun shines like Sunday morning.
You bring your laugh & I'll bring my sense of humor.
And we can waste the days,
One week after another.
