Monday, October 27, 2008
wah seh the long weekends came as fast as it ended. actually it ended wayyyyy too fast man. how come weekends always seem to zoom past while weekdays are always long and draggy. rahhh. anyway! nothing much happened this week. except for maybe james' bday. happy nineteen dude!
oh and ytd i was at ikea raping the fried chicken wings there and the table next to me kinda irritated me. they're your typical early thirty singaporeans who took their degrees in some atas us university. these are your super refined highly educated people who wld rather eat chicken wings with a knife and a fork than rip it apart and rape it (like wad i was doing) and they will most likely bury themselves in library books when they are free (no not your chick flicks or tom clancy drama books but those chim chim political science books). and coincidentally, these people are usually educators, or english teachers to be more precise. HAHAHA MELISSA CHAN!! dun worry i'm not talking about you girl :) but the worst part which got me damn irritated is they talk with some kinda us cum singaporean slang. wah sebeh buay tahan. for the entire one hour or so they were discussing about super chim issues and glancing over at me every once in a while in disgust and a tinge of condescension cos i was ripping the chicken wings apart like nobody's business. honestly i tink these bunch of people suffer from an identity crisis. they're a hybrid of americians and singaporeans, and they way they talk just irritates others, or at least they irritate me. or maybe i'm just sore that i'm not given the opportunity to go overseas and study in some atas uni lah hor. hahahaha
well it's a tuesday today! thanks to the un nehs i got to slack at home for the entire monday. so it's FOUR more days to go before the weekends! and den it's new zealand for me :):):) muhahahahaha
Friday, October 24, 2008
six months.
well, i'm officially 6 months into my national service. one quarter down, another three quarters to go. three dull and mundane quarters. i've come a long way from april 25th 2008,
six months back, my world was much simpler, much brighter, much happier. i remembered the days after a's. the first meal i had after a's was pizza hut at suntec. me liying tracy weishan. we talked about the future, and ensured each other that things wld be fine, and we wld stay in contact. somehow we didn't quite enjoy the conversation, at the back of our heads, we all knw that wld be impossible. my day of freedom didn't go as well as i planned. yes i got smashing grades, but my close frens didn't. it's one of those moments where u wish meritocracy wasn't practised. or perhaps god was just looking after me. then came new zealand, prom night, and finally work. well actually it's work in the morning and party at night. and not forgetting my new spending power. 1.4k a month. the cash's all yours. your hard earned cash. u dun have to tell your parents what u're spending it on, u just spend. infinite freedom. infinite possibilities. big plans where drawn up. shanghai, phuket. well at least the latter did materialise. and very soon everyone ard me were going on overseas trips. we've just crossed the threshold from teenage to adulthood. we were ready for the world. working class heroes in the day, party animals at night.
army killed it all.
i still remembered the day before i enlisted. my last dinner with the odac girls. xinhui jasm stella huihui audrey. we sat by the fountain at istana park. the ambiance was good. the cocktail was good. life was good. perfect. ideal. i stared at the fountain and the lush greenery before me, the sweet scent of cocktail still lingering; i knew all was coming to an end soon.
my day of enlistment came as quick as it ended. my cheap non camera plastic handphone reflected wad's installed for me in days to come. stripped from all luxury, unceremoniously taken away from my comfort zones, reduced to my bare elements. as i saw my hair come down, i knew all was over. i'm a conscript. i'm here to serve my sentence, to pay my penance. i'm a recruit.
and look where i'm now. i'm a blue collared worker. and i'm still trying to come to terms with that. i'm surrounded by people of a different social stratum, we exist in different worlds, we come from different backgrounds. their mindsets and ideologies are totally different. and i just cannot understand how one can be so morally degraded, vulgar, and unreasonable. if army has taught me anything, it's my growing repugnance for them.
it's been a long and tiring journey. congrats, u've survived your first six months.
army's a rite of passage from boys to men. yes continue believing in that, conscript.
Monday, October 20, 2008
facebook has made me realise that there are lots of people in vj whom i haven't seen before in my life. sigh the downside of being a superstar. HAHAHAHAHAHA
anyway, i've been watching heroes again! season 3 finally came out after all the scribe's strike thingy going on in us. but i tink heroes is getting from bad to worse. they keep introducing new weird characters of little significance to the plot, or characters with major significance which just makes the entire plot much much more complicated. i'm like following 4 concurrent mini stories all with one huge underlining plot, and each episode just adds more and more confusion and countless questions without answers. i see it from the point of view of a producer that they gotta make things as complicated as it is so that the entire story can drag and drag and drag for seasons and seasons and they can make lots of money. but i tink everyone's starting to get a little irritated trying to swallow and digest the whole plot, and very soon it wld become like lost or prison break. but anyway it's still super nice to watch cos they like to explore on metaphysical issues. yes i like these chim chim questions about our existence yo. it screws around with your brain and makes u feel that u've become more intellectual even through u aren't. delusions are good :)
Sunday, October 19, 2008
wake up call, coffee and juice.
well, once again another week has come to an end. i keep getting this feeling that i'm wasting my time here. i shld be doing something more meaningful, perhaps learning a skill, or pick up a hobby, at least finding a purpose or a goal to achieve within these 2 years. it's like having a target board, even if the arrow doesn't hit it at the bull's eye, at least it hit the target board. but without the target board, the arrow would just fly continuously till the laws of gravity comes into motion. and there it will lie on the ground, lifeless and unaccomplished. i find my life chillingly similar to this arrow. i do not wish to find myself in such a predicament, yet subconciously i've been wasting my life away. hour by hour, day by day, week by week. it's not that i do not want to inject some colour into my life now., i want to learn how to drive, i want to read law as soon as possible, i want to learn bout the economy and how the financial market works. but given my current unpredictable shift work army life, i can't really do much. plans are for ppl who are in control of their lives, and sadly i do not fall into that category. i'm the puppet of the saf. and the knowledge that i'm unable to get myself out of this predicament always frustrates me.
well at least this week was a little better cos it's CHAN WEISHAN'S BDAY!!! :) haha happy birthday babe! i know i messed up big time with that sms, but but but i made it up with the tofu cheesecake okie! :) haha. yes a 10 by 10 cm tofu cheesecake which sihan never got to eat. AWWWWW. your exams were seriously untimely, but i guess there's always NEXT YEAR! hahaha. and judging from all your photo uploads on facebook, u dun seem to be studying very hard arh? more like parteeyyying with uhm u know who. haha. anyway! weishan u made me real jealous when u drove. rahhh. i want my damn liencse as soon as possible. haha and chester was really really super cute! he looked like some super huge living teddy bear lol. let's meet up soon again when sihan's done with her exams ya!
and not forgetting sat's run! whoa the route from the vj bridge to fort road felt like forever man. haha but never the less it was a good run! :) and alas i've seen the whole east coast park - from nsc to fort road - all on foot. muhahaha. well stan chart's nearing, dunno how to survive it man. haha. but i can't imagine ppl running the full marathon, run until your arch collpase and knees break man. haha. oh and thanks for the popiah! :) haha i want more popiah next time okie! this time with extra chilli! lol. don't die mugging in ntu arh :)
a few more hours and the weekends are officially over. which marks the start of monday blues, post monday blues, midweek blues, post midweek blues, and finally TGIF. so i guess we shld all just work on friday, i bet the motivation and hence efficiency we get from a one day work week can cover the other 4 day's lost of work. yes vote me for president, i'll make sure i implement that. oh and of cos i'll scape ns. all of u just need to donate 20k to hire a gurkha to replace you for that 2 years. and probably another 10k for all the reservices he has to sit in for you till u're 40. but not to worry, i'll provide u guys with interest free loans, or a monthly deduction from your cpf. sounds attractive eh? vote me for president then :)
HAPPY NINETEEN BIRTHDAY CHAN WEISHAN!! :)
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
i've been down and i'm wondering why these little black clouds keep walking around with me.
hello world. i got lazy to update. actually i tink my brain's dying that's why i dun really feel like writing anymore. SHIT. well tmr's wednesday! midweek! 3 more days to the weekends, which i really dunno wad's lined up again. everything's just so impromptu right now, but i'm just glad i get to come out for the weekends. no, i shld say i'm glad that i can come out everyday of the week, have dinner at home, facebook, and sleep on my nice comfy bed in my air con room. i my vocation in air force is the most screwed up one, but no matter wad my predicament is still far better than my army conscripts.
last weekend was a smashing good one. met up with weishan and sihan FINALLY :) yes it took ages before shan cld find a day where she was free to meet up for dinner. haha someone superstar eh. well actually it was supposed to be a CLASS dinner. but the definition of class in 06s63 meant only a handful of ppl. and i've no idea why but liying and tracy decided to pang seh last min. so it became a 3 ppl class dinner. i dunno whether to feel happy or sad. but anyways it was quailty time spent. yes so i guess it's quality over quantity haha. both shan's and sihan's lives seem so much more colourful and dramatic, mine just deal with bolts and screws and more bolts and screws, which so happen to be grey, talk about irony man. sigh it's okay 2 years i tahan, in exchange for my red singapore passport and my pink ic. and perhaps in exchange for not having cramps and bloody periods and carrying a kid in your stomach for nine months and den squeezing that thing out of your, erm okay nvm. anyway meet up more often okay! i need my constant doses of gossips to keep me sane. hahaha.
loof with the guys after that. whoa really super cool it's a bar on some roof top of some building. but it looked more like a fish market cos there was a hell lot of ppl, and somehow all of them were contented with just standing up while having thier drink. they didn't even mind if there's no table for them. which is kinda retarded considering the price u pay for one glass of cocktail. insane.
and not forgetting sunday's evening run! :) yes finally ah, hahaha. east coast park and vjc seemed ever so nostalgic, how i wished i was back to the old days where studying was the only thing on my agenda. okay i shall rant about my financial woes in my next post or something haha. and yes let's run more frequently every week yeah, miss pang seh queen! :)
oh and watching calefare just brightens up my day. it's really damn funny and there's fiona xie. humour and sex appeal. perfect combination eh. hahahaha!
and to weishan, rmbr hor, GUYS ARE FOREVER, girls are whatever. hahaha. oh and finally my hair's growing back. like really growing back. after a painful 5 month wait. yes jasmine tye my crown's back. whooooo
Monday, October 06, 2008
hello world, it's been a while. well nothing much has changed in my life, i'm still stuck as a stupid technician and spanners and bolts and nuts and screws have all become my best friends. for me it's like working a job which has lousy pay, no pay rise, no promotion, and most importantly no passion. i mean to be perfectly honest what i'm doing now and wad i'm gonna do in future is like two different ends of the spectrum. so i really see no point in what i'm doing, which makes these 2 years even more unbearable and mundane. and i'm really wasting my time day after day week after week doing nothing but watching the world go by. life sucks baddd.
anyway! movies these days are getting more and more absurd and nonsensical. after the utter failure of vicky christina barcelona, i tot a movie with top actors wld be okay to watch. so burn after reading sounded like the perfect candidate. but as usual i was wrong and that's 8 bucks down the drain again. sigh. it's a show wich makes no sense from start to the end. such movies justify the need for pirated dvds cos it's just not worth paying 8 bucks to watch it.
vj open hse was great. super long since i've seen a place so lively and happy. army camps are always shrouded with gloom, it feels more like a prison. anyway i finally got to eat my chicken rice with potato after like 1 year of not eating it, and it's really super super shoik man. i miss vj canteen food. and not forgetting mass dance! sigh i miss those days when i'm in vj. i guess u gotta treasure things before they're gone. but no no no i definitely won't treasure army.
it's a tuesday today. 3 more days to weekends!
cheerios!
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
love of mine someday u'll die
but i'll be close behind
i'll follow you into the dark
this song is so simple yet so poignant and romantic! haha oh wells.
anyway, happy yalam day to ppl like faris. it's been a long time since we've last met.
